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Monday, July 27, 2009Y

What Is A Stroke?
A stroke is a “brain attack”. It occurs when the blood vessels (usually arteries) of the brain are blocked or burst, resulting in the lack of blood flow to certain parts of the brain. When these parts of the brain do not receive blood, they get ‘injured’.

What Are The Types Of Stroke?
There are two types of stroke – Ischemic (lack of blood) and Haemorrhagic (bleeding) stroke. Ischemic stroke occurs when the stroke is caused by a blood vessel blockage.
If the stroke is caused by a blood vessel that has burst, this means that a Haemorrhagic stroke has occurred.

What Are The Warning Signs Of A Stroke?
• Sudden loss of vision in one or both eyes.
• Numbness, weakness or paralysis of the face, arm or leg on one side, or both sides of the body.
• Difficulty in speaking or slurred speech.
• Sudden severe headache.
• Difficulty in swallowing.
• Dizziness or unsteadiness in walking.

What Happens When A Person Suffers From A Stroke?
As the brain controls most functions of the body, certain body functions will be affected due to the damage of some areas of the brain.

When the LEFT brain is damaged by stroke, it may affect:
• The strength of the right arm and leg.
• Understanding of written and spoken words.
• Numerical skills.
• Reasoning abilities.

How Can Stroke Be Prevented?
There are several contributing factors to stroke, of which the following can be controlled:
• High blood pressure
• Diabetes mellitus
• High cholesterol
• Smoking
• Obesity
• Sedentary lifestyle

Other general effects include:
• Swallowing difficulties.
• Slurred speech.
• Spasticity, stiffness in muscles or painful muscle spasms.
• Balancing or coordination problems.
• Pain, numbness or odd bodily
sensations.
• Problems with memory, thought, attention or learning.
• Problems with bowel or bladder control.
• Fatigue.
• Difficulty in controlling emotions.
• Depression.

Science cannot explain everything. It still hit her when she does not have high blood pressure, no diabetes, no high cholesterol, never smoke, and is young. But a family history of stroke does contribute to the risk factor. From western countries medical view, things like not exercising also contribute to the risk factor.

My life almost changes 100% over 1 night. The first few days was horrible… I don’t dare to sleep alone at night, I ran between hospital, home and work. I was badly deprived of sleep. I had to do all the household chores which I nv done before..washing of clothes. I started calculating all my savings and think of the worst that could happen…and I kept having the feeling that I was in a dream, a long long dream, that seems blurry at times, but sometimes, yet so real..and hoping to wake up in the morning to find that, “it was all a dream!”

Anyway, I woke up from the “dream”. At the present moment, things are not very very very extremely bad. Waiting for Wed 29/7 for further updates and information.

They never believe in insurance, which is so wrong. Don’t take health as a joke, or simply brush it off, take it seriously! Call for help…dun waste time going to GP or go to NUH.. and never be overly-reliant on one person in the family. Everyone must learn to do something at home. The only thing I really regret now is, not emphasing the importance of insurance to them (I dont sell polices mah..so not convincing to them at all) and not learning how to whip out good dishes.

And I really feel the deep deep love, warmth, comfort of my family….=)

ends at 7/27/2009 03:41:00 PM

Sunday, July 05, 2009Y

sometimes, we hope and expect for too much. thus, we are the ones who end up feeling sad and disappointed. We thought that they will feel as happy as I am, we thought they will rem our bday, we thought they will give us this, we thought they will be there for us when we really need them. we thought they will help us when in need, we thought we can cry on their shoulder, we thought we thought.... its all our own thoughts.

is it hard to forgive, or is it hard to forget?

I will say its hard, or rather impossible to forget. I nv forget how they treated me.. I was not the blessed only child u all thought. I nv forget how much I need him but he was not around, instead, I had my best fren beside me. I nv forget how I dented his car but I demanded and offered him to get it back to shape.

But I forgive them... they had their difficulties, they couldnt give me what I want, as a child, as a student. I forgive him, he cannot be by my side when I need him most.. can i say that he didn forgive me then? for the reason that i was nv allowed to go behind the wheels agn.

everything seems so wrong!

ends at 7/05/2009 10:24:00 PM

June 21st, we went muar for the 2nd time, and bought durians back for family, for ah ma, for uncles and cousins. Visited cousin ah shi new home too =) it was a happy and warming gathering, ah shi, ah teng, cailing, lawson, dear and me were all sitting together..eating, talking, watching tv, laughing. may sound silly to some..but then, i really like this feeling..very comfortable, very family love warming feel.. Also, seeing them enjoying the durians we bought.

but why couldn he feel so? the 1st trip back - he seems to feel that it was ridiculous to drive there just to eat and bring it back. I mentioned before...its not just the durians. its the trip, the drive to there and experience. He had to say these durians cannot eat too much, not natural, all is use medicine, jab it and enable them to drop faster, not natural stuffs blah blah. Its very pissing off for me. I was so happy and glad to bring it back home to share with them...and he, and she have to say this? She always do not have her own 'zhu jian', simply agreeing and nodding to what he said. on the 2nd trip, he said the same old things again. I am so sicked can!! Ok, mayb Im sensitive...alright, I know I am.

I had an ulcer, I had a bad breakout. Yeah..mayb its bcos of these durians cannot eat too much, not natural, all is use medicine, jab it and enable them to drop faster, not natural stuffs blah blah. But he thinks even stuffs like mangos are like this!!

today, went ah ma home. I was even more sad... ah ma said her leg had some red rashes. then she said after eating durians it was like this. Omg. Did I cause her harm? then he made me felt even worse by saying these again - these durians cannot eat too much, not natural, all is use medicine, jab it and enable them to drop faster, not natural stuffs blah blah.

its very f. very f. its his words that pisses off.

these durians cannot eat too much, not natural, all is use medicine, jab it and enable them to drop faster, not natural stuffs blah blah. We cannot eat. I shouldn buy and give anyone to eat..

I meant no harm. I merely wanted to share happiness and gd stuffs with them...

Why we cannot communicate? we are just a small family....we cannot talk, we cannot go out together.. we cannot... you dont support.. if u dont like it..then I have to adhere to it?

*p/s : did u all feel ill, anywhr not okay aft eating?

ends at 7/05/2009 09:52:00 PM