i need a short getaway. tioman, redang or bintan.
need to unwind..need to rest and break away from my usual routine.
when its late at nite, and i am alone. i juz feel so loss, aimless, useless, demoralised.but who wil wan go?
and saving up for the hp is my priority !!
ends at 5/31/2006 01:36:00 AM
thanks..all my dearest pals =)thanks for your encouragement, wishes..esp janelle...i almost forgot i was sad i didn get the job, till u called and asked me abt it. i guess i was numb abt all these alreadi. thanks for asking and giving me a chance to open up all my hidden thoughts and hurts..Got to wrk 6 consecutive daes, next off is fri-sat. haven get a decent top to go for sis rom yet! Tues meeting long time no c frens! so happie! looking forward =p !!Thur staff party/chalet...lame..Jimmy bought me the puma shirt tt i reali like alot! izit the meeting old flame daes recently? Wks ago was lyon.Yday was marcus. oh fark. he's wif gf (and a very fair one!!)den juz nw he tok to me via msn. telling me stories. which i dun possibly believe! hello! i last met him in last yr oct? he tink im stil e one for him. and i stil like him.. im being honest, i told him i dun anymore. and all along, i haf actuali like K. he said we go for 1dae holiday together and, tink abt us, gif a chance, gif him some time and he will gif me the status. siao...if he can forgo his current gf for me, he can do tt to me too, RITE?cant be bothered to xplain things to him! if he wan to think tt way, let it be!
ends at 5/28/2006 11:24:00 PM
why do they always bully me with their words...u dun wan eat, why still come here ?y today u wear like u go prison ?wateva i said, i wear, i do, they also got things to sae. ya lah..im finding excuses !! i tried to keep my cool. i wanted to walk off ! i was already feeling so miserable today....SPF rejected my application.i think i lose out bcos, no driving license.and i dun haf prior experiences in admin areas.worse, my internship was at the retail frontline. it didn help at all.sad. stress.my frens all seems to haf a job le. with gd starting pay and career advancement. me? stil stuck with part-timing, earning little tiny weeny money. pple stressing me, suggesting me for many jobs, telling me-this place lor, tt place lor, wah muz at least got tt much pay....i reali wana try for adminstrative jobs. no more frontline positions. those services, direct selling, shops or wateva. no career path. too routine job...don need to use so much of brainy n skills n knowledge for the job.i wan a retail, fnb, industry. or industries tt i haf a interest for.marketing, human resources, purchasing, or even accounts.juz no more frontline, insurances, direct selling, sales target to meet, telemktg.bad day.shop all dae, couldn see anything i like ! nth to wear for jun 6th, sis rom. mphosis sales was terrible.i am really devasted. i admit J has been nice to me. pple haf been asking me if dere is a chance...i haf no idea too. its juz tt prob of him tt i dun reali like. and oso...he stil haf a long way to go, and i cant forsee anything yet. his 2yrs NS startin only on Oct. aft tt his 4yrs in SMU.and i juz still feel very attached to kenny..and not ready to give anything up yet. i am foolish, silly
ends at 5/27/2006 01:51:00 AM
tml marks the 2wks for the spf job. sigh.im kind of contented. i talked to ..him.. via msn. he's sick. i feel the pain. i hope he get a good job too. and i stil seem welcome to his hm. may we able to meet nx week.. 5 long mths. 3 more mths to his bday...tt ty bear can serve as a bday gift, when its suppose to be given when we noe each other for 365 days.tml i will b receiving a gift. wondering wat izit..so silly. spent money buying things for me.
ends at 5/24/2006 11:37:00 PM
Grad ceremony on Jun 23th, 3pmRemember to sign up for your attendance on nyp web, by 30th may. Failure to do so, it will be assumed that ur will not be attending the ceremonyDress Code for Female Graduands:
Recommended attire: A smart outfit, preferably a dress/blouse & skirt teamed
with a black, dark blue or chilli red jacket. Skirt length should be around the
knees or longer.
Dress pants and ethnic costumes are permitted.
Shoes: Court shoes or pumps.Each graduate may invite two guests to the ceremony. 
juz a cardigan, and its 65. wow. exp. bcos of label? but its MNG . Intendin to get this to match with my chiong mPhosis skirt, juz $16 and 100% similar to mPhosis(selling @ $30)im glued to the tv, evy monday. its SUPERBAND day!!my Mi Lu Ping and Qi-Nobe!!im horribly sick of wat im doing now. part-timing daes, little money and waiting for calls, unanswered wishes n hopes...the police force job. please lah...gif me tt, will you?
ends at 5/19/2006 10:44:00 PM
i need some space, my own privacy, my own freedom...
getting abit too fan le!
told him im not going to the chalet wif him. my reason being, its his fren's gf chalet, and im not his gf (for goodness sake!) , dun wana go and feel out of place + sianx and later he haf to juggle between his frens n me, cos im pretty sure, its not easy to clique wif strangers tt easily. Right?
Im sure my reasons are SOLID enuff =x But he kept persuading me to go, when i said firmly i really dun wish too!! So whiny! And worse of all, he said he oso dun wan go le, then we go out together!! WTF?! Wtf wtf!!
questions, asking non stop, persistently. it kinda irks me off. im not ur who-so-ever, abit of care and concern is great, but too much, it gets irritating. U noe, when im working and he's off, he can ask me tis, can i go look for u and pei u back hm? Wtf! He finish early, me later, he oso ask the same ques, or lunch, dinner together?
When i go out wif my own frens, he ask sooo many ques. okok, ques is ok. but he ask toooo much. u not my who-so-ever too. and worse, he will gif me one sad or sianx look. when i said its a guy! Wtf!!
asked me out for dinner and i said im headin hm for dinner. and in msn at nite, he asked tis, so hows ur dinner at hm? nice? omg....wat a lame ques? and he luvs to ask me all these things evy single dae...hows ur day..is evything ok?
And not forgetting...wanting to accompany me to interview last wk. Wtf! hello.....interview ok. wat wil the interviewers tink of me as?
I admit, i tink all these are super turn off for me. My cousin said, ur cruel/evil ehh! but she mention perhaps its due to...i dun feel the same way as he does feel for me. Plus, im a independent ger. i dun need soooo much attention!!
i need my own breathing space as well.Exactly one week since the Spf interview…hows the outcome? I hope they will call me soon…please!!
Im terribly sicked, feeling hopeless, rejected, loss of motivation to work dere le. New sup is cranky. Invasion of all our privacy? Hello china-woman-lookalike, We are part-timers, we are not married to our job, our schd are suppose to be more flexible !
And nobody agrees to why we should let you noe our reasons for our off days request! U shld be thankful that at the beach, there’s so many of us part timers who can wrk 5 daes for u！
So u want us to let you noe why we want those off days? We want to go out dating, we want to go shopping, we want to go find new job, we want go clubbin, we want go haf sex and scandal ard, AND we want get a life ehh!!
Oh please!!
And working alot..but little pay =( all the money goes to our CPF…
Not goin to buy anything, wait till nx fri great sg sales! Hooray!wHoO ! yday nite out wif Cowan ! He's so fit ehh.. so charming, lolx. no movies to watch at cine, both tired...so headed to Altivo @ Mt Faber. Last last time, wanted to go up so much, yet no chance. Now, its like, barley 1mth, and i'm dere twice. OhH.. saw stupid couple makin out in the car, behind his car, and so many cars nearby. streetlights were on and its bright, not dark!
ends at 5/18/2006 02:48:00 PM
Janelle’s bday at brewerkz!!
My spf interview went pretty smoothly. Well, I think so =) there was 2 other male candidate. Dressed super formally n professionally with large briefcase? wAhaha..i went in last and while waiting, the 2nd guy seems super gan jiong! His breathing was sooo heavy!! Not laughing loud at him..but of cos I was very nervous too, but I think not as bad as him ba!
Before the interview started, they gave us a copy of the job scope. Jaws dropped ehh…it seems so chim!!! Four to one interview. whew….but the interviewers are all very nice and not those intimidating type of interviewers. The place, the headquarters located near TTSH, is very beautiful. I wish I can work in such a nice place and a safety environment! Cos evywhr is SECURITY! Wow!
Went to The Grand Cathay for Mi 3.
Anyway, nobody is in my life yet. Haa.. lester kk. Tho his actions was alot faster den anyone can expect. He, ”Irene, can I hold ur hand?” I didn agree and asked why. He, “Yin wei suo yi.”
Ohh so lame.
Abit too much, dun look for me so much. Its getting abit sianx…I feel like I dun like all this things and his pattern alot. Always msging, asking. And suddenly I really dun haf the heart to gif up all the things I can do while single. And its jus like, I still prefer others….
ends at 5/14/2006 11:42:00 PM
A lot of tao hua
D.
I NEED to let him know tt I jus treat him as a fren, and nth can or will happen btw us. So I told him abt J. Well, aft D heard all my words, he had lots of tiny weeny actions and words to me. “I miss u dearly. I am jealous leh, ur goin out wif him. Ur my princess. When can I see u agn?” . and calling me at least once a day, to ask whr I am and etc.
J.
Evythin jus happen very fast? Within 2weeks, already went out many times. Okie, he’s very nice, very sweet. Insisting on accompanying me back hm, irregardless of the long journey plus the extra time wasted. And some colleagues r like hinting hinting le. Lolx..and the girls oso keep disturbing me now =D Arghhx !!
To Cailing!
Hope u n wenhui enjoy yehhs!! I oso need a job…haaa…die le die le. No money le rite =S mayb I wil meet u someday nx week ok? BHK!
Haf no idea izzit safe to put tis up. But hahh..i tink he looks so cute in it! And I am reali mesmerized by tis! 
Aiyda, Suria and me
WaHaaHa..i like tis pix!! Each of us wif diff pose n style!
We were at esplanade den
ends at 5/03/2006 12:05:00 AM
Goodbye, and no longer friends.
The almost 4yrs ago r/s, the one I reali adore alot. The one who I thot I will be wif for long, the one r/s whr we haf planning n more.
Sun 300406.
I met him agn, after so many yrs.
But we didn acknowledge each other. He still look the same. From the shop, I can see him playin volleyball and soccer so clearly. I feel myself smiling when I see him happy =) I got the feelin whr I was back to the past when I was wif him tt yrs ago….But when I told them I am really frighten abt seeing him agn, I actuali dropped my tears.
It hurt a lot when the one beside you in the past, is now a passerby, a stranger. And you thot few yrs down the road, u will stil be with them. There’s no forever.
Mon 010506
I saw his best fren. He came to the shop…and im very sure he recognized me. I actuali wanted to say hi to him.
Wat was shocking was…he’s still with the same gf I knew tt time. And they have a boy with them now!!!
Wat the fuck!!
haix...im very sad.
ends at 5/01/2006 11:50:00 PM
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