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Monday, December 26, 2005Y

MeRRy XmAs ! MeRRy XmAs !

from xmas eve sat to xmas noon sun,i was so sianx! On msn, not many frens online, all go out happie le. and all those online definitely ask-"xmas wor, never go out? yday go where celebrate?" OMG, ans till veri sianx.

and for these 2days, i thot i got another bday too, so many frens send sms wishes!! its only on Nov10th then usually will receive tat much sms.

And furthermore all u hear from pple, read fr blogs, whr they go, wat pressies they have, their bfs/gfs buy wat for them..
the more i hear, the more i see all those, i feel so inferior, so bored. LOL.

its jus peer pressure tat make me feel so. cos i kinda enjoy the peaceful moments. aft work at 630, i went to eat dinner alone, im begining to enjoy eating alone =) and went to raffles city shpg mall, marina square to shop awhile. alot of post xmas sales liao. haha. and bought a mng khaki long pants, perfect for work! and best - i can claim money sia!

Best of all, my xmas was Happily Sweety Beautiful..because i met up with...=D

U noe Yang Cheng Ling song- li xiang qing ren? my heart was jus like the song, dats how i felt exactly when im on my way..heart bumping here n dere, super happie n anxious..i've been anticipating the meet up for so long le!

his parents are very zhi xiang. the room was very homely, cosy small n veri nice lightings. so ROMANTIC !! and i love how he smell me, haha..nice right? my lancome miracle!!! (smell, is not a very correct word to use...)

and i was really touched and happie to receive a xmas pressie, a shower gel set. hey, its gonna be my FIRST and ONLY christmas present!! he's so funnie, he actuali didn wan to wrap it, but he changed his mind, and wrapped it with newspaper,and one featuring andy lau. So paiseh too, i didn get any pressies for him lorh!

i hope everyday can be spent tt way~
SWEET!

ends at 12/26/2005 12:49:00 AM

Wednesday, December 21, 2005Y

talked to alvin in msn and he told me he got into an accident at jb. speeding, (foolish act, chiong at 290) cos he was heartbroken, broke up wif gf. Affairs of the heart again =( all these r/s shitty. He wasnt hospitalised, but his whole left leg was super horribly injured. Cant walk properly and was limping. We lived nearby, and he told me he was hungry, so all i can do for him was buy him food and brought it to his voiddeck, well, at least he have someone to talk to and stepped put of the hse ba. Im so sorrie, cos i sux at consoling friends, i might have said the wrong words or make them felt even worse, instead of giving comfort, i give more frustration n sadness =/
But anyway, of cos i took the chance to tell kenny abt this as well. a text of 160words and a reply of 2 words. haix. But stil he's very nice, he called alvin almost immediately and made a trip down from his hse @ hougang to bp. and they shld be now @ msia le -to see alvin's damaged bike at the repair shop(but the shop is obviously closed at tis hr!), to top up kenny's bike petrol, or buy msia cigarettes.

chalet for one nite. hopefully will have fun.

i dunno wat, whr to go on xmas eve.

evytime on way to wrk, i felt reali sick, wanted to geng mc and dun work. it nv happen when i was at fortsiloso or at beach shops. i wish i can be trsf out..

ends at 12/21/2005 01:33:00 AM

Friday, December 16, 2005Y

over the causeway..

*Manicure and pedicure is not as HOT as in sg
*MANGO sales there was good. no messy crowds, no messy clothes all hanging around. and slack security. more variety of sizes too =)
*And at other shops, most tops are free size, and its abit toooo big for me lah!
*Why arent there A&W there? KFC? more famous jap resturants? sushi tei, sakae sushi?
*Swensens is known as SEASONS over there. And the earthquake was served w/o smoke...

i spend the most among them. bought food, looney tunes tissue boxes, bcos its so cute! chewing gums and a pair of heels, and i really like it alot alot!! nice nice nice!!

Saw Mo xiaoling there. lol. all the way to jb stil saw celebs. The guys bought cigars, but they choose it based on the packaging! We were at Duty Tax free mall, and i was very tempted to buy liquor there! barcardi, chivas, vodka all just rm40+ ! all brands of cigarettes there. i have NEVER see such HUGE varieties and bulks of cigarettes, liquor and beers before!! but if buy liquor i will need to pay at ax of 20% of sales price and oso to declare it @ customs..and i tink its troublesome. And oso, even by the sea side, its still not romantic at all...WahHaa! No wonder he can sae, ther wher got romantic place...ther lik shit...

so fun and gao xing going out with them! esp when havin our meal at swensens...super lame!!! muahHAhhaA!!!

ohH, tired aft a whole day
AND tml wrk =(
sux..

ends at 12/16/2005 11:31:00 PM

Thursday, December 15, 2005Y

silly me, its just malaysia only..haha..but still so happie so looking forward! but msia is stil not sg..its not as safe as in sg..but i will be careful!

mango is having storewide sales again!

i tink he wants a r/s of convenience. its jus recently that he contacted me more frequently. im not very convince abt it. tho the words he said seems true and realistic enuff. but for me, the feeling have yet to come..there isnt any sparks or passion! it haf nv occured to me tt one day we will be back together too. nah..nobody will fight for a war when he's not confident. i said i wasnt prepare to go into one wif ANYONE yet, i said i dunno how to maintain one how to carry on wif someone who i liao jie more abt the past than in the present. i said i wasn confident and i dun reali dare to try one and try try try but sway ahh-it doesn work out. den it means time wasted and evyone haf to heal from it agn. and my worries was proven, the past-i tried a few, put in some effort but it didn work out.

hmm..i love him the most!

xiao zhu!

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ends at 12/15/2005 10:02:00 PM

Wednesday, December 14, 2005Y

i copied this from an unknown source, i hope the owner wont find out. I just find this really relate to how i felt at times, or more of in the past..

"my point is, friendship needs maintanence.

we came to the conclusion that sometimes, although we try to include people in our activities, people just dont do the same. we feel kinda left out and wondered why this is happening.

but its just kinda disappoints me that people went on without even thinking about you, while all the time you had them in your mind"

on 2 weeks term break from nx week. chalet going on 21st-22th. and it will be christmas and follow by new year 2006. Gonna spark up the festive hols.

Recently, chatted with one ex bf. who haven been in touch with each other for awhile..reminisce abt the past, and he confessed that at times, he really gave in alot to me, find my attitude was horrible and untolerable and thought that i was too taking him for granted-and he hates it. And i told him, i knew it, and till today, i haven forget he is one of the most tolerant fren to me.

horrible, terrible, sad, affected i felt. So i was really such a attitude person..so someone was right..i was full of attitude. =( he was never wrong at that. i hated myself for that.So why on earth im such a attitude person? perhaps i was the only kid at hm.

omg..how long more can i endure working at merlion..i hardly know anyone there..i lunch alone, i cant choose the time i want, its boring, redemption bored me..or stand and walk ard at sales floor for whole shift, worse:endless clothes to fold, damn frustrated!! fold and fold and fold again! my presence is not needed at all..pple wan buy, they wil jus buy.... i dunno how to promote, upsell, the things over there....

im thinking of buying k600i. i miss the sleek aluminium finish of sony ericsson phone and mp3 ring tones.

and the white baby-g watch..a new wallet..plus i saw a simple yet beautiful diamond ring..

ends at 12/14/2005 09:09:00 PM

Friday, December 09, 2005Y

insomnia tonight. went to bed at 1100, tossing ard and ard, and it was 0100! alot of junk stuffs on my braine. Wake up and watched tv- yu le 100% ! i luv the show :p

jus set my profile to: No, I would like users to see that I have viewed their profile.
this is bcos, SO THAT I CAN NOE WHO'S VIEWING MY PROFILE !!

its gonna be temp though, cos most of the times i STALKED pple's profile..lol.. when he came into my mind, i miss him-all i can do is see his BLOCKED profile. jus one small tiny weeny pix.

next week very horrible! two tests one presentation..

but nx friday will be goin msia ! hopefully c0nfirm huh.
see whether got any nice affordable things to buy anot weee!

ends at 12/09/2005 02:23:00 AM

Thursday, December 08, 2005Y

=( =( =( =( =( =( =( =(

these two feeling comes and go
and now i'm feeling tat way now

i am usually very okay with myself, my small built, being petite blah blah...sometimes i like being the way i am, smaller=cuter(lolx) but sometimes not feelin great..and its to the extent that i dislike being so and hating why cant i be better....it happens especially when i'm with this girl...its funnie tho'. cos she's not those very tall or of very big built~ i feel intimidated, often, when we are together.. i wish i can be taller, abit flesher..

i simply dont like the way i live my life...i really dont enjoy going out with different guy friends now and then, talking to so many others on msn etc..i dun like it. i dun! today with this, next day with this, weeks later with this and months....Dont enjoy anything about going out with different friends-guys.. sometimes havin a particular clique is soo much comforting and nicer...

ends at 12/08/2005 07:42:00 PM

Monday, December 05, 2005Y

i can be a very easily contented person. making me happie is easy =p
drinkin a cup of pearl milk tea make me happie. buying nice things, even a small earring can make me on a good mood too!

2am. im happily contented now. Haf been a long while since the last msn conversation. Dropped hints..its not a easy thing.of cos, i didn. Its such a great feeling hearing all the laughter, the
'muahHAhhaA' via the msn window. i noe its super virtual-its jus all the abcdefghijK..but im jus happy to hear the laughters! I luv all the interactions the contacts between us..hopefUlly this will alwaes happen n we can go out soon...

its strange, at one moment we seems very okay, talked abt nx time whr we wan go out, go romantic...and then things can change to super icy cold. There was lots of time whr i somehow promised myself many times, that i'll just give a short call to the number. But i failed to do so =( scared..

i've new passport le =) my hse quite near custom..can jus go there top up petrol n jus jio me along okay?

asked alot of ques but im not sick lah...muahHAhhaA..im not. i asked these ques because i CARED.

ends at 12/05/2005 02:03:00 AM

Sunday, December 04, 2005Y

eeks, i hate it- someone i dislike, own the same stuffs that i have =x

but nvm, the colour i bought for wen is definitely nicer!! humph!

my "chao geng" day....

went bugis, again. lol
raven wana buy a bag. and he bought a nice one!

and stanely came down meet up too..

huiwen and jerral oso came down, wana pass her some gifts =p

and then, watch harry potter at plaza sing...movie ended at 0330hrs. took cab home. waste $ lah but i rather spend it on cab then wasting time for a NR bus and walking a long distance back hm.

its 0450hrs, sleep!
i cant stay awake for too long, i dun like the feeling of being really exhausted and tired !!
will try my best study for mon test.......sianx....

i miss him....tell me wat shld i do... =(

ends at 12/04/2005 04:44:00 AM

Saturday, December 03, 2005Y

today is huiwen bday! happie birthday girl!
did up this pix for u =) actuali wana do it up to a frame or smth de, but couldn find any suitable sources. U keep this safe hor? lol, and i've got other small pressies for u as well!

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im a chao geng person, but just today!
im suppose to be workin..but i geng sick =/ No mood to work, feel so @#@*#& about work. dun understand why i gonna be trsf to merlion! and my in-charge, she's obviously a big fat two headed snake. im soooo sad......

and i was tired to work too, i slept at almost 5am last nite. Cos..i was on the phone, chatting with shawn =D muahaha. hmm..tis time no 7hrs phonechat, jus 4hrs+. he's stil so awfully sweet, tt i hope he's mine, foreva. lol.

humph, lots of work to do. stil so much of proj to do. this sem is horrible.

ends at 12/03/2005 04:15:00 PM

Thursday, December 01, 2005Y

Saturday's Newsroom bar !

three girls in blacks & three guys in whites,so qiao! Image hosted by Photobucket.com

the guys of the night
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and here's the girls of the night
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xinfu huh..LOL..arms ard us!
*frens frens we are all frens muahaha!
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they are photographed by nightlife! ooohh, whr was stanley and me sia? WHR WERE WE?? WHY DUN HAF US!!!

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SEE?! HERE'S ONE MORE WITHOUT US......
haha..
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gosh =(

using this nk6610, made me fedup, unhappy and frustrated. It jus remind me of all that shitty! Been eyeing on some new phones..but buying a new phone have never been on my priority at all. never, cos i've alot of other plans. Now, i have to reconsider all this over again. Its going to cost me a bomb. i haven start earning money yet!

absolutely no morales for anything. coming to year 3-last sem. im scared, MUS graduate shun shun li li and of cos, to do well...but the projs, tests are really of no interest to me..i dunlike any of this..haix..im like soooo lost in all my proj work..choosing wrong topic, not-in-close-terms teammates is a prob too...

my phone rang-finally, happy mood! thought that i have someone to spend the night talkin away...but he was playin mahjong, haix,dun wan distract pple den~....im losing those talking-on-phones kakis le...boring..one by one came in..den stepped out..wtf...

goin to slp...ZzZzz

ends at 12/01/2005 11:29:00 PM