♥love you...

Sunday, July 31, 2005Y

I’ve a very long day since Friday le ahh =x Fri 8am class, den go Upper Thomson for the crispy prata. Yummy! And den went to the nothing-much-to-shop de Hougang Mall. And then, went to work at 5pm. After work..Hehh HeH, I went out!!

..With my dearies sistas to .NewsroomBar. Nice place leh. Used to haf the impression tat it’s a boring and very chillz-out club. But no ehh, their music and ermm, many other stuffs are okay wor! Alot of locker! Toilet is big. And their dance floor very unique leh, not just release those dry ice, oso got some very nice aroma!

Went in FREE!! Fren sign me in =) NEVER drink anything there too!! Dance till veri tired and thirsty, we went out to 7-11 buy drinks and talk…yeah, about work!! COMPLAIN abt our work and gif updates on all issues. Very "sam pat" de la =x

And yah…I dance at podium for ermm, the first time. HAhaha. Oh ya, I got a new fren dere on the nite too. He invited me to be up at the podium wif him lahh.....And seeing tat he make 2 attempts to befriend, I didn reject oso =) and its his bday oso.

His group of frens all gather and know each other from “wholivesnearyou”!! sooo surprised tat this sort of thingy actually can work out, can get a group of strangers all together and all bcom frens!! All twelve of them hor…all same network and all live at yew tee. They kinda haf good bonds oso, go nite cycling, go jogging, fishin n clubbin 2gether de sia.

Newsroom close early, aft tat, this new fren jio me go eat supper wif all of them. 13pple, 3cabs, 3tables all join together sia....so big groUP! At the YEW TEE mrt 24hr cfeshop. Aft tat, he send me home from dere lorh……and dats all =) he okay la, not tt bad. 23yrs old servin ns

Sleep for barely 4hrs and went to sch for presentation….sianz, tat module sux biggg time. So scared I will flunk oso. Me ji-tao chiong like a speeding car when I presenting sia…cos no time liaoz, me 2nd speaker already left jus 2-3mins leh >.< haiz.

Aft presenting, went out to town wif nelle to ROAM around and oso eat lunch there. Leg so tired aft last nite over there and oso bcos me wearin heels and formal wear roaming around. Travel to plaza sing and stayed there till Daniel and fren came and went to cC them play billard. Play balls till 9pm…im so hungry liao and all five of us go laupasat eat and 11pm I took bus home. Dunno where they go after I left also. Aiya, cant stay for long cos im reali worn out after a nite of not enough sleep!!

Wana meet my buddies actually de..but Al Alzhar again??!!! And Raynor always work till so late so kelian, go elsewhere eat oso too late le…..

Next 2weeks will be cooping at home for studying liao. NO MORE GOING OUT!!! OKOK. NO MORE WORKING ALSO!

Mus work hard for moi exams…..

Cousin ya lah…we dunnno how long nv go out together liao lorh! Wait till my exams over okk =) go haf some nice food bah! And ya….i haven ask u to diy colour my hair, hAhha. Dunnoe when oso leh..We see h0w ok?

Sorrie sometimes nv tok online to u all cos usually online will settle my impt stuffs first. Me no internet access….me “toetoe” use pple’s connection~

okay time to slp!!!!

ends at 7/31/2005 01:07:00 AM

Tuesday, July 26, 2005Y

Are there anyone out there..who still drop by here? who still remember me.....cos everything got so quiet so recently =(
(Not much pple tag or find me...or even jia you for me....)

well well. thanks god..thanks hmm, every soul. My prayers was answered. So relieved hehh..whew. *cold sweat* i shall b a nice person le.

Sunday went to a "pai pai" event...."tiao tang" thingy..aiya, those who got go pai pai shld noe wat me talking abt =) Aniwae, the thing was...guan ying niang niang(or rather,my elder cousin) hold my hands, and told me this in mandarin, "anything that is troubling you, say out, dun keep everything to urself"

i dunno wat happen...but upon hearing that, my tears actuali roll down.... maybe i was hit on the nail. guan ying niang niang noe me. she noe i keep alot of things all to myself. to me, it seems like.."ohh, finali dere's a soul, a someone who noe me, noe how i felt, understand me!"

today as i went to sch n told nelle abt it, my tears oso rolled down...

bad news: Ade, work as a executive level, supervisor for hmm, a gd 7,8yrs. AnD SHE GOT RETRENCHED! Wat is that?!
MY DEAR NEW BOSS..........okok, tml all sups will go office and ready to get some latest news bah. Who will be told to leave? Well...wif Ade leavin, i wont be too surprised tat me, a 2yr+ part-timer was told to leave too.....well....When will i get my "results"? Better prepare for the worst.

Aniwae, SENTOSA. im good =) im experience in retail line!

wish me luck

Kaimei: How are you? Wonder if u'll drop by here..cos i see u taggin at Lipsin's blog. Aniwae, take care. Hope ermm...u still remember me lah hor. Shld be havin exams or busy wif projs bah? Jia you =)

Raven: Ho HO hOo! Attach to which company eHh? How are you? Hows' everything le? better better le ma...hope you are. Haf been quite some time le too. yeHh..take care ok? dun worry too much.

Huiwen: miss you girl. where r u? do keep in contact...dere was a period of time where we lose contact wif each other...it was aft the Findin Nemo movie yrs back den we were all back together.....i reali wish to see the bond between us is ongoing foreva and eva......

=*GUCCI RUSH=

ends at 7/26/2005 12:26:00 AM

Sunday, July 24, 2005Y

Gucci Rush(for men). Can anyone help me cC if its available in 30ml? maybe at airport hor..duty tax free =) thanks

i haf a pleasant day today! went to trim my eyebrows =)

den went to bugis to 'pai pai'...for shun shun li li( facin some f e a r s now)

and shop at bugis. was approached by a nafa student askin me if i could be his model for his proj. fashion n dunnoe-wat de degree course. yah...u all nv heard wrongly. he ask me lah. kinda talk alot to me abt his proj n stuffs..but i turn him down lah.. he make me so flattered wif his words, cos im slim, asian chinese ger wif nose piercing

and went to bugis seiyu to cC. Gucci Rush so ex. 50ml already cost $70!! Aniwae not i stingy kk. Jus tt i feel tt getting a 30ml will be enuff lorh. Forget to ask if they haf anot oso...hmm..experience very very good and friendly service from the sales staff!

took train to pasir ris. reach 30mins early so went in dere shop shop. BUT NOTHIN LORh...even more boring den BPP. So went to Ya Kun sit down and haf tea...and wait for them to come.

the party was generally fun =D happie 21st bday Nick!
took lotsa pixs. ate alot. cos food too nice!

i told my frens who attended the party this, if invite u all go but u all didn turn up..i'll feel very sad and i'll cry.....

left at 10plus and proceed to cityhall to meet moi buddies. and back home at 2am bah...marina square giant to shop esplanade and den al azhar.

saw boon after he went in NS for 1mth plus. hmm..my 6610 sux. eekss! cant imagine i take back the obiang phone sia! omg so erxin =x

hmm. very exhausted. goin slp. need to work on sunday.

talkin abt work...they cut my hours for the next week alot =( two outlets but we haf over 10 staffs. i tink im unwanted.......

am i goin to be jobless? NEW BOSS..look out ok? i work so long and i m GOOD hor. Open eyes big big.

nvm...sentosa hopefully accept mE

ends at 7/24/2005 03:19:00 AM

Friday, July 22, 2005Y

*updatEd 1am*

finali having a saturday is soo happie =D
but not too happie when things abit screwed up and u dunnoe wat exactly shld u do on a off day. me definitely not a gamer(janelle, i dun play games lah =x) and i dunlike stay home whole day doing nothing much..

the temptation is juss tooooo strong. i wish to go siloso beach so much today, saturday..for the volleyball competition. but, i gonna miss it bah. UNREALISTIC. STALKER?

aniwae evening goin Nick's 21st bday. Almost whole class going =) But nelle is not going/cannot go. haiz. aniwae...alot happier comparing upper sec sch life and my poly life now. my relation
is good, okayz, with everyone. Not like last time in sec sch...

im very worried abt something now.....

-END-

Sentosa just called nelle & me for the interview =D

So happie. Really hope i will get the chance to work over there yehh!!

So anxious, excited and panic now..

Last time go for so many job interviews oso wont be so worried leh..now this one is really different..very important!!

Jia you for Nelle and Me bah!

*mUacks*

ends at 7/22/2005 04:50:00 PM

Thursday, July 21, 2005Y

die! Very soon will be the next presentation..gosh. this project reali not sure at all..how hUh? wat to do leh...pray hard it gonna be okay =x please. i work alot on this liao leh..hmm,yea! im VERY satisfied with the menu i created =) haha, look so pro & attractive!

hmm..realise tt i wasnt the worse off actuali. My dear fren even in a more serious problem. clear those debts which are more urgent and serious de okay. No own transport nvm..stil can rely on public transport =) and slowly clear tat. Ur bro's bills...leave it first if can~ since u haf your debts to settle hor..moreover, u didn use it too. Take care horh. Hope the ordeal be over real soon for you =D Dun be dishearted, cos in each and everyone of our life, mishaps happen...and we need to walk out of it yea.

Ytd worked and didn get to see Superstar =( Leon Leon Leon!!! So going ga-ga over him..wahaha..hope he make it thru the revival round. But hmm, other contestants are equally great too leh. Saturday got repeat telecast! I Will waTCh it!!!!!!!! Den i tink i shall miss Sentosa bah...(shawn shawn shawn)

Oh ya!! Thank you cousin for letting me use ur acc so tt i can login usin my own com =D

and den..anyone wanna go to msia for a day. the week after national day. we go eat and shop and mayb....some sightseeing(haha,msia got sightseein meh?). cos i got five off days after my exams n before ipp

ends at 7/21/2005 12:52:00 PM

Wednesday, July 20, 2005Y

My Internet is suspended againn, due to bills again. Out of so many days, why happen on the day whereby i've lots of projs to clear? It was so difficult, cant do research online, cant send report to ur fellow teammates..haiz..its sooo frustrating and worse enuff...i schedule myself to work alot this week..im jus like rushing to school and straight away rushing to work and then home..i have been working for five consecutive days already! im realiiiii very drained out, physically n mentally =(

tml another horrifying project. hope its over soon and pray hard tat it gonna be okay.very worried for this module..proj dunnoe, assignment oso dunnoe and exams weightage 50% which i dunnoe oso..After which, will be left with 2 more projects due on coming monday..............but dun need be happie or start relaxing. Cos exams soon!! From second week of August >.<>

Bintan..tat nite after he suggested to me...i cant sleep the whole nite at all..from 130am in bed till 345am still wide awake..gosh, i was thinking...jus thinking of it..if reali go how..wat will happen..how much fun wil we haf..how enjoyable is a trip to Bintan and wat will happen aft the triP...but aniwae, he didn ask me abt it anymore too. So yeHh...no more liao la. Cos he didn call me, we seldom contact. aiya...Well..i oso tink i shouldn go lah..

On 27th will noe attach to where le..EXCITED!! hmm~ but if get a admin/office job oso headache leh..cos all my clothes dun suit such environment. oh ya..another thingy, 27th is Vincent bday. huHh..again mentioning abt him. Used to thot tat by his bday, im okay and veri steady already and im all ready to drop him a msg in frenster to wish him. BUT...chey, no lorh. i think i cant do it. So forget it bah.

27th will oso b graduation day and my buddies will be coming to school to take their cert =)
This Sat goin Nick's 21st bday yeHh. Downtown east..hmm, i luv the pool dere!! Oh ya..remind me of last march chalet wif moi buddies. So fun and So happie..those were the days~ Another thingy...Saturday at Sunset bay there's a volleyball competition!!! And Shawn's joining!! Shawn is joining!!! i feel soooo much like goin to see the whOle event and erMm..see him lah =D

now in school..going off and back to my irriating home and rush to work again again..so tired and hungry now. i seems to be fatter now!! my fren actuali told me tat wahaha..and ya, gained 2kilos =) wahaha. abit happie..heE

okok..gotta go. take care all my dears =p

ends at 7/20/2005 03:44:00 PM

Thursday, July 14, 2005Y

WeE! i was offered a trip to Bintan on Aug =)
everything will be pay for. mayb i jus pay for my other expenses.
Xin Fu horh? Xian mu mah? hAhahaz...

this person has got 5days leave after the NDP and oHh..it was just nice, i jus finish my exams on the NDP week and i've got 5days off before IPP start.

Bintan leh!! Seems like a good and nice holiday destination.
Sea sports!

But guess who was that person...
abit foolish to do that for someone like me hUh?

but this person keep asking me to go lah. and like somehow wanna me gif an answer immediately.

Who wont be tempted rite?

But i've lots of question marks in my mind too..

and this person also ask me that ques he ask again last week over MSN. i dunno lah...

i tink i irriated him liao. hahA..
cos i myself...donnoe wat i want too.
i dunnoe =(

Its something like this.. i m thinking of:
1- i somehow doubt his feelings for me.
2- as much as i doubt his feelings for me. i doubt myself too..how much tis person stand in my heart & mind..
3- bcos my heart dun easily settle for someone..it wander about..
4- i am oso, mayb waitin for miracle to happen..waiting for the one i reali adore
5- not too ready to step into a r/s wif tis person..cos i tink we arent tat suitable
6- sometimes i reali luv my single life! YehH!! i can go out to anywhere, wif anyone!!

how ready am i for this?

NOT READY YET

You see? i LOVE my single life!! Tonight, mayb goin out wif my hmm~ ex bf who aeroplaned me last mth.
mayb only, didn put too much hope in. In case, aeroplane fly again..he might haf NDP rehearsal.

some other stuffs:
* Left with four more projects..end of all these shits on July 25th..
* IPP listin out on 28th. Sentosa openin up a few positions for mktg students! Send up resume alreadi..maYb gotta wait for an interview.
HmM~~ Sentosa! i will be so proud to work on a growing organisation!!
* Need haircut, hair colouring
* Haven buy a pair of formal black heels and a formal skirt aHh!!
* I need to do passport...seriously, im tempted to go Bintan!
* Closed 2 outlets again. Guess wat? Left 8 outlets...last time i work at crown ctr closed, den intl blgd closed, den paragon, tt sway outlet oso closed(sway bcos hp got stolen by a idiotic customer who bought a $2.60 roll ..
and now imm closed, the place where i noe a gd fren dere..
* BLACK cover waived wow!! Isn't tat good? Juggies at $10!!

ends at 7/14/2005 11:30:00 PM

Wednesday, July 13, 2005Y

haPpy BirthDay mY deaR CouSin!

HOORAY!

almost 3am now. i have so much work to do. all my projects projects. i dun even know if i'm on the right track anot. So busy. So tired. So stress out. So frustrated. TIRING ehH!!

Went out just now for awhile at the usual hangout place.. angry and upset =(
i told myself not to get angry and stay calm and relax. but i cant, i cant do that. i jus have to vent all my anger, frustrations out!
Sorry pal, didn reali mean to. But its like, its a feeling of depress lah. Ermm..like being aeroplaned? or insincere liddat lah....haiz, i donno. But sometimes our problem is alwaes liddat. Meet so xinku, so many conflicts, really very pek chek.

Today at Wisma saw Vinc's team mate in his force. The malay guy, forgot his name after so long didn see ALL OF THEM. But he's like the few ones tat we share conversations with. Especially since he live at Jurong, send him back home den will be my turn..remember teaching him this dialect word, "ai zai" (mus b steady!)

and my dear actually blog this yea..
***Rene dear..i really missed ya..not coz of black magic..esp the times we spent...e pics we took..the gossip sessions we had...well, ya take gd care all rite. Hope that, he(Vin) won't take too long to realise that somewhere out there, there's someone waiting for him...

make me even more sad now..its so late now. im feelin slightly affected over jus now, feelin lonely. and also i feel abit sad over wat happened btw us..

i still miss him though i met new frens..

mayb bcos the new fren come and go in such a short time..

no more sms..no more phonecalls..no more msn..no more excuses to meet..mayb wait till nx mth, his bday..save money and buy him a gucci rush perfume, cos he say he like it!

Saturday at work saw Davin!! Was quite happy to see him =) Didn reali meet him cos busy and he's like one of my close fren too...he somehow, stand by me since i was wif Lyon and den Vinc...

and Sunday nite..meet Daniel at Bpp Mac. actuali i was abit relucant to meet him cos of the ktv incident..but nvm la..he didn noe anything abt wat happen at all...but he was like the one who make few of us haf misunderstandins lorh..

wat a boring blog.
go sleepz now..

ends at 7/13/2005 02:45:00 AM

Wednesday, July 06, 2005Y

thot i alreadi deleted him in msn? maybe onli deleted but didn block..so he can still see online bah. aniwae, didn meet/talk to him since the short dinner together last mth,june. This's part of our conversation..wah, first time haf a conversation wif us not quarrellin and fightin. but but but..damnit! why he stil keep sayin i haf an attitude?

i dun haf! i jus haf a personality tt u cant accept it

he: if i ask u patch
he: can u dun show mi attitude?
he: ??
he: so how?
me: we've nv been together before
he: duhx
he: so nw cna be
me: wat do u define me as being attitude lorh?!
me: please lorh...till now u still haf the mindset tt im alwaes showin attitude?
he: duno loh
he: u always like argue wif mi de
he: sae i this n tt
he: haix
me: cos i tink im not in the wrong, so of cos i mus argue rite? who likes bein malign and alwaes being scolded?
me: which ger will like a guy to talk so rude to her? so loud to her? alwaes say her off??
he: sometimes nt i scold u
he: but juz teaching u mahx
he: haixxx
he: u shld noe i always beri guai lan
he: haha
he: k lahx
he: sorie k

see?! tt time our dinner, he even sae..."so now u noe you are in the wrong le la?"

honestly..sometime reali wanna give in, jus accept some pple..cos im scared i wil be left on the shelf. cos scared nx time no choice to choose at all..den will regret last time ahh, got choices but stil hiam this hiam that..

anyway, i dun haf to worry right? cos stil young wat....

maybe...

aniwae, sometimes somepple reali appear on the wrong time..cos my heart could be wif someone else..~~

once in awhile..i haf to give in to my temptations..i click on his profile and dah dah-! stil the same pix, but can see the caption!
can u all see it?

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"photo capture fr print screen"

To you, u can marry me!! u can!! Dun need wait anymore!! It shall be your turn soon!!

and another stolen pix. from his fren acc, who is in my list. 02/04/05 at sentosa. Why didn he took off his top and show off his sexy body? hAha..
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ends at 7/06/2005 11:14:00 PM

Monday, July 04, 2005Y

She's 19. Her bf is.....30 yrs old!
11yrs gap! and her bf dun haf a stable job..tink got take money from her de..

today i heard that.......
she's takin pills.
birth control pills!

contraceptives. contraceptives.

She's only 19 lorh....one day if she reali gettin married, wanna give birth and have babies...its goin to cause her problems! all those drugs pose so much side effect......

she's only 19!

hahAz..she have such a enriching sex lifestyle ya?!

ookk back to it. Thot her bf shld b mature enuff to noe wats good for her gf? Don need to resort to pills ma....its like..wat if they didn have an endin? They didn get married? The guy ditch her? And den the ger haf a new life...new husband...but cant give birth animore?

keep skippin class this semester. so boring goin for lessons. todae skip supplychain tut. tml oso skip my entrepreneur tut. hate tt module so much..wif all thos stuppid proj. sianz

tml will go breakfast wif my mom. and noon go out wif my dear frens! banquet and cfe club or tcc!! and evenin...wahaa.
INTIAL D!!! i'm finally going to watch it..im soo happie =D

and today i bought two tops from osmose sales!! im reali feelin happie now!!!!! Haven been buyin stuffs for me,myself..like the top sooo much! yeAHHhh!

finally someone complained to me that he kept callin my hp but was off and finally decided to call my house and look for me! He's the only one...cant find me via hp den call my hse...the onli one. haha...aiya, maybe tml i meet him late at nite? he sae he will call me...mayb he will buy me sweets or snacks from m'sia.

and i saw my....*dear, shawn photo.
damn, tt ger flood his frenster acc wif all her testimonials!!

ends at 7/04/2005 11:28:00 PM

Sunday, July 03, 2005Y

To cousin,
dunno if u wil pop by here an0t..
refering to ur msn nick just now.
u lost QQ ahH????

Tml noon will pass a sum of money to my mom for the hp bills...she must go make the payment cos im not free...she better go pay ahH..

and hopefully my line get back by asap..by afternoon !!

Firstly, it was my msn giving me problems. Cant use it..windows keep closing by itself.. so i resort to using emessenger(cybertai). but it was abit lousy and lagging...so i use msn webmessenger..

and now..i cant use msn webmessenger..windows close by itself again...so i got no choice use back emessenger...and kaoz, same same! windows keep closin by itself!!

now totally no other means of messaging over the net!! stupid virus..
my com reali need to reformat again! issit the problem of me,dunno how to use net or reali the problem of broadband???

irriating.......im so irritated!!

just now was talking halfway with fren, he ask me if i have eaten my dinner already anot. i tink,most probably he wanna ask me out since we live nearby..and then..i got logged out from msn lorh!

Called him at his hP..and he said he haven eat lah..asked him why..same reason as me..lazy to go out to buy food! den he ask me another ques.."never call kenny ah?" sadly...i said "no".."mei you mei you call him"....and he followed by, "he's stil outside now".

12am u stil outside for wat lah?! you don haf to wake up early tml meh?!

okays....aniwae, my tat fren said wanna call me back shortly.......now 30mins gone, he haven call back.

why liddat? i only wanna talk to someone mah....why nobody call? everyone reachin each other via mobile...why? all scared to call house ahH? i whole day only talk to colleague..at nite jus wanna talk to a good fren...but why all never call me anymore? call my hp but off....BUT stil can find me via house noe right..................

tomorrow superr lonngg day! my bag is soo heavy....who can help me carry? school 8am to 3pm and after sch, working again....tml presentation also. but no preparations done at all...i haven been going out to chill, to relax, to jus go out for some walk/shop around....for few weeks alreadi! the only place i went these few weeks are just....my lonely home, my school and lastly....LOT 1!

bloggers love to say, its my blog. so i have the rights to say wat i wanna say...true true true. but sometimes spare some bit of feelings also. Don jus sae it cos u like it, must also tink of wat pple feel abt the subject right? And moreover..they are readers of ur blog, they read ur blog..u tink they reali nth to do den just read ur blog to kill time? So spare some thoughts for them.........

example: came across someone blog with all her criticisms of some stuffs/some things..the way she criticise it...damn ehh. abit too much already...u dun like it den dats ur prob rite? dun need to judge pple or criticise the pple who may be usin it.

ends at 7/03/2005 11:13:00 PM

Saturday, July 02, 2005Y

Closing time, Jollibean gif us pancakes!! FREE lehz..wahaha. somemore abit craving for it!

reach home, still feelin shuang shuang wif free pancakes...den i thought lorh, scali all cheese flavour! So to see if my instinct is really so accurate...i took a fork and open it up....
and damn. its reali cheeseeee flavourrr...duhz!! all three pancakes!

my sis called me at outlet and ask me out for the night!! immediately agreed. cos i miss her and she's alwaes so cheery and happie and wanna see her!

but reach home and after our discussion, we decided to postpone it to next week. haha,tis time is not being aeroplaned. Cos another fren is alreadi at raffles when both us are stil at home..so the fren haf to wait kinda long before we reach town....so dats why, postpone it. devils, usually we'll go there!

ermmz, im actuali drinkin tiger beer now. hahaz, crazy? okays..feel like drinking it lah. so jus pop a can of it. Wanna do my tutorial..but read thru, flip thru..dunnoe what the heck it is, so forget it! don do..got do or never do tut also same. tutor oso don check mah.

now feelin abit Hoooott Hot Hot. bcos of beer. face red..everytime drink face sure red..so awful =( but i guess, after a can down, i gonna have a nice sleep......

last time i got drunk drownin myself wif tiger beer oso...whaha..drink beer can drUnk? yea..last oct wif him, went devils. when leavin the place, drowsy liao, tink i cant reali walk too straight..need some supp0rt. and slept soundly at the back seat of his car wif the cute snoopy bloster he haf. heE~ i rem i vomitted oso....wahaa. lousy. and i oso lost my lipgloss my lipbrush!

kfc promo! the $3.95 is jus too tempting. The super big poster is hangin at the outside of Lot1 lorhz!!

do i sound cheery? happie?

my smile could be my disguise..lots of unspoken words+thoughts runnin in my mind&heart//

ends at 7/02/2005 11:56:00 PM