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Thursday, June 30, 2005Y

Raynor:
Very very touched aft readin ur blog =)
see, such a obedient and good boy here..
ur current job reali seems terrible even though pay gd ritez..
but afterall, u haf a diploma in ur tat particular field, why wana waste it?
yah..startin pay maybe 1.4 but as time goes by, it increases and mayb promotion oso?
but finally decison lies on you yourself also.

but when u become a chef once again...
i got free pasta to eat mah!!!!

wahaha!

Lipsin, we are watchin Intial D together right? raynor leh?
Next week okay? Weekday!

Called up M1 and i haf to pay up the total outstanding bills or my line won be resumed back...three hundred dollars. My father wana cancel his line but he wont be able to cancel it unless i change to a new plan. So i haf to change to a new plan because of him.......
kaoz. my plan now is like alreadi extinct k! $10plan and $5 caller id onlyz..change plan oso much more expensive....fark!

Goin to school now..finish only at 5pm...this weekend work full shiftz..so sianz..

ends at 6/30/2005 11:09:00 AM

Monday, June 27, 2005Y

School started after 2weeks break! Miss sch jus-a-little-bit, perhaps fun and laughter with my friends. But stilll dread the 1hour journey! Somemore today lesson is 8am! Woke up at 6am...

Damn! There's really alot of work to be done..endless and all still hanging in the air! hope it gonna turn out okayz. *Bless* i'm going to be really really busy.

Two weeks never go sch. This morning, as usual, walk past the platform of waitin area or so called the bikes & cars lots and thought of my dear friend.. ...On April when i met him dere cos he fetchin me to some place to collect my prizes..and while decidin where to meet den he said tis in msn, "ther got road wher i can wait for u ma.... i mean road that i can turn in.... ther got many ppl wait for ther dear dear or lao kong de...."

WAHAHAHA =)
i haven meet him since tt week.....

This Wednesday going on a field trip to Mindef Army Logistics Base. Hey, first field trip in my poly yrs! orhh..located somewhere at Sembawang. Stanley said sembawang got 2army camps, one is Khatib Camp...but aniwae, i doubt that the huge Logistics base gonna be at those army camp bahz. If only its reali khatib camp right? and maybe so qiao can see my as above mention fren!

New boss coming soon! New mgmt! Well, finally things are settled and officially dere's a new boss. There's going to be lots of major changes....i dunno anything yet. Haven been brief yet..who knows wat will happen? maybe im asked to leave. maybe the changes are too much, too extreme and i am thinking of leavin? Donnoe Donnoe?! Abit worried but excited osoz..

and something bad...
today i become a sinner and stanley even more sinner than me!

i paid only $1...for a FULL Mcdonalds Big Breakfast Set!
Tea, hashbrowns, sausage, muffins and scrambled eggs. Only $1.......

in the first order...i got a free hashbrown. abit sinful already!!! auntie give extra...and i reali didn realise it till i got back to table......honestly, if u will me, u oso won return rite? So far mahz and its only $1!

sit happily dere with my tea & hashbrowns..and stanley came back to table with 2 big breakfast. One was his order.
and the other one....he smiled and passed to me !!!!!!! so shocked with my tat expression....and den he told me its MINE! he told auntie he collecting another set for his frenz......

omg! stanley u cant do this anymore. im full of guilt! im so dishonest, but u oso!

but, free breakfast wow. so nice..haa...nth happenin now, no stomachache heez..but this type of thing, only can do once lah!!!!

this is a photo taken...FIVE years ago! Was talkin to my st john fren in msn and chattin abt our old times togetherz...and found out tt she got tis photo!My only photo with me in full-U. Taken at Jintai Sec durin Advance NCO Course, passin out parade?

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though now our group no longer contacting animorez..i suppose its okay...memories are still dere! Our most memorable thingy...all of us..hug and cried together when we didn get the top 5 in the annual footdrill com! i reali cried till my eyes swollen and even cried when i reach home, when i sleep...wahaha

ends at 6/27/2005 10:53:00 PM

Wednesday, June 22, 2005Y

abit cute..
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Haf been waiting for this show for so many months and tomorrow, its finally out. Happie!!!

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my pc wallpaper =p

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even if the movie not soo nice, i'll still say its nice...cos Jay Chou what! Haha.

Anyway, i wont be surprised if i missed the movie also. Since i haf already missed so much shows tt i wana watch toO. Creep, House of Wax, Kingdom of Heaven, Magadscar...

Thursday, off. dunno wat to do. feel like goin dipping in the water feel like drinking coffee and movie and eat nice food(porridge leh?!)
But HELLS, i have so much probs to deal with......

was talking to my colleague abt my hp bills, kaoz. almost cried! heng i didn. Or confirm super "xia sway". Pay for them also? Siao bo? Kaoz...its a total of $300..

trust me pple pls believe me...my bills are always very cheap, less than $30! $300+ is bcos i tink never pay for few mths.

i seldom or very long time nv pay bills and we got state terms out nicely lorh okay, tat i won b payin the bills often. I jus went thru 6mths of tep and onli work wkends and my pay was like a pathetic of $200 over for all my everything lorh.

it hurts so much tat they don care so much abt me....painful.......

but im still abit glad that i haf gd pals ard me who wana offer me a helping hand....thanks alot alot. im touched n happie enuff with your kind thoughts.

however, i reali dun like to borrow money from pple. especially, borrow to clear debts. feel indebted to them and worried tt i'll take too long to return back and they'll paiseh to ask from me..den the frenship turn sour bcos of money issues...and money borrowing is like a never ending thingy lorh.....

Mark asked me in msn if im goin there tonight. NOpez, not going. Past two weeks de wed went already. No doubt tat i reali dun wan to stay home, i wana b out from home for a whole night........whole day.....and have a nice companion with me...who can pei me, talk to me, chillz out wif me and will nt feel im a nuisance.......but nobody came into my thoughts. Pick up phone but dial wat no?

How sad?

and him.. seems to mia from me and never wanna talk to me at all anymore..i dun even see him online when he get back hm...thought i found a companion alreadi but tink cupid didn shootz......i lost the chance again...he didn wana gif me a chance at all oso mah.....i did put in abit of effort also mah.......

ends at 6/22/2005 11:29:00 PM

Tuesday, June 21, 2005Y

tomorrow Wednesday Wednesday..

next week school start again. going to die once sch starts. because i haven start doing on any projects at all. DID nothing at all. Personal selling got 2 assignments. Intl Mktg got 1 proj. CRM oso got proj and Applied MR oso another 1 proj and the still on-going Entreprenueur proj(sux).....all dunnoe due on when also........die! With so much work on hands.......how sia. haiz....headache...feel like vomitting now kaoz!

im reali super frustrated and upset....i dunno wat shld i do with my hp bills....$300 over. Should i go get a new line? Should i go get a prepaid card? Or shld i pay 1/2 of the bills and pray tat M1 will reconnect it back to me?
im feeling so handicapped w/o hp....im so worried tt pple are lookin for me...projectmates...they dun haf my hm no....one week already..

HOW?

Dun u think its soo stupppid if i pay 1/2 first? Cos i noe, for sure, they wont pay the bills. so the other 1/2 sure i'll be the one paying! They arent worried at all..cos they got a prepaid card to use!

Maybe one nite i shld get MIA from home.........

let them worry

aniwae, they arent a least worried abt me at all!

everyday i feel like knocking my head against the wall...feel like venting all my anger my frustrations...im super annoyed...im even more irriated when i see her rottin away at homez...bcos i dun tok, cant tok to him...things apparently will get worse..dun ask me to tok to him....i cant bring myself to tok to him..if i can...long long ago i'll b able to do so le.....

Do u noe how it feels when u wana talk soo much but u dun seems to be able to talk....i donno why...but i found myself keeping all to myself...i dun talk to anyone...i jus keep it all to myself....i dun seems to be able to talk to anyone of my prob when deep inside im feelin reali pain....i wana cry out but i hide....wats happening....since soo long ago....i dun express out wat its in my heart....i know god give us one mouth so we can talk less and give us 2 ears so we can listen more......but why....why i cant seems to speak wat's on my mind....

for even a simple thing...when i want to mention it out...i even analyze it out..shld i say this? Is there a need? Nothing much den say for wat? Bo liao wat. No need den don say lorh. Got say or nv say also no difference what. Pple interested meh? Not tat im tryin to act noble, wana listen more and talk less...Not tat im tryin to act mystery.....kaoz..im crazzzyyy i dunno wats wrong wif me........

ANYWAY. IM JUS SO FOREVER IRRITATING. FOREVER SO FAN!

ends at 6/21/2005 11:20:00 PM

Sunday, June 19, 2005Y

mon i'm off. tue and wed work till 10pm. thur i'm oso off. fri and sat work till 6pm. and sun work till 10pm.

thanks raynor =) i'm okayz.

i tink the kallang murderer must haf got his inspirations from the previous 9pm drama show in channel 8.....remember the bad guy use a saw and cut andrew seow's body to many diff parts and buried at diff trees? Definitely lorhz! This murderer oso cut the body into diff parts and threw at diff areas....omg..this pple are inhuman!

ends at 6/19/2005 11:23:00 PM

my hp got cut off...in case nobody know yetz..please help me tell them....oh ya, lipsin or raynor..if boon call u all, help me tell him oso lorhz...cos i tink he haf been callin to my hm and i didn pick up any of his call at all...was workin everyday everyday and get home late...

aniwae...i don haf the mood to talk so much also....all i want is just money to settle the bills...

myojo cup noodles at 95cents, so cheap...there's no rice at hm. no gas to cook oso....cant cook anything over the stove at all...didn haf proper dinner for past three days lorh!!! Li hai Li hai...... today a bread,pearl milk tea,curry puff and homemake bread from my colleague and till now..nothingz...Not hungry No mood to eat~~ i wan soup tt she cook and chinatown porridge...sometime got craving for KFC chix and pastas!! tomato sauce..dunwan creamy type!

no money so dun talk..im just so angry so pissed...i hate her saying that she's tired when obviously didn do much things at hm..i hate the sight of her rottin her time away at home..newspaper, tv or rubbishhh....waste of time and she could use the time to earn money ritez.....fucking irritating...

saw another photo of vinc jus now in one of his frens profile...taken at sentosa...saw his smilez..i miss him..still miss him...occassionally....sometimes reali wanna haf him backz...though he haf nv reali been by my side before..i wan his explanations, wan him to talk to me...

jus now call a fren whom haven been talkin for quite sometime...talk barely a min jus 41secs.....haiz~~

ends at 6/19/2005 12:34:00 AM

Friday, June 17, 2005Y

Today Friday le!! Working till closing at 10 pm again..another long hour day..but at least tml working with her lorhz…working with that aunty ahh, so sianz, hardly talk at all, all bcos of one incident which happen 2wks ago, everytime when I noe I’ll b working wif her..i jus get so disturbed!! Heng ahh…next few days not with her. Pearl Milk tea make me happie so later workin i mus buy!! $1 ehh, so cheaP!!

Anyway I get to see Power Rangers "Live" Muahaha! Yeahh…7pm! OMG..so funnie lo and abit cute =D Well.. bought back lots of memories! Used to love watchin power rangers, every Saturday rite? With my cutie little cousin who used to live with me. Got red, pink-kimberly!! and yellow rangers and hmm??

Next week planning to get offz on Monday and Wed, the rest of the days will also be working..Fri & Sat till 4, 5,6pm.
~ 23th June…Intial D Hooray~

Year’ Dec 03 work at Cinecafe actually quite fun, though the mgmt is horrible. Love making the drinks, smoothies, latte, mocha, hot choc so fun!! Love to kpo and help Concession also(Sell popcorns and snacks de) help them boil cheese and I’ll my nose cos I dunlike the smell! And help them pack and weight Nachos help them draw drinks and popcorn(Sweet, Salted or Mixed?) and cook the long hotdog!! And closing time…wahahah…take back home and eat!! Can get free movie tix from full timer and eat nice nice food from out kitchen..Uncle ah hai cook de mushroom soup, minestrone soup and seafood lininguie my favourite!! Oh ya..everytime we toetoe cook breaded chicken, wedges, crispy chicken to eat!!

Hope to work in café or F&B line =) work nite job pubs clubs actuali not bad lah…cos money kinda good and abit majiam entertainment but for now..i wont work cos absolutely cant take it..very very tired siaz…scali all work de money all goes to see doctor or all to beauty pdts ahh…

Got pasar malam near my house!! Lots of food tO eat…tml aft work can go walk walk since I dunwan go hm so early and face the walls…everytime at home feel so fan so irriated…

I’m jus craving for porridge from Chinatown I reali wanna haf it…..craving it for sooo long le.....

Today second day w/o phone…no one was looking for me at all..caller id nothing..frenster oso…haiz…mayb havin a phone is jus redundant..

ends at 6/17/2005 12:15:00 AM

Thursday, June 16, 2005Y

Terrible Terrible.....im feeling so terrible now.

Its just day one and i am feeling alreadi so xin ku..

keep worrying that people are looking for me...

Lost hp twice before, last time got SIM card to use..at nite still can put SIM card to my father's phone and see who lookin for me. Now, new phone..used less than 2wks and cant use leh...INACTIVE SIM CARD....

How? Prepaid card? 300 over dollars ehh.....not totally my fault oso mahz =x

Feel so lost....Totally moodless...Numb...
[but jus now went out haf some fun heh heh =D]

im so worried that they, you all, her, him lookin for me...
but i doubt so...haven been talkin to ~~ for a long time leh...miss ya..

if one day *touch wood* cant even online....i tink i go siaoz..

TODAY is THURSDAY: Work 12 to 10
TML is FRIDAY: Work 12 to 10
TML TML,SATURDAY: Work 10-6
TML,TML,TML,SUNDAY: Work12-10

siao liaoz..work so much =( Boring!!

NEXT THURSDAY 23 JUNE!!
FiNally yeah! INTIAL D!!! INTIAL D!!!

but scali same like all my previous movies wishlist...all wanna watch but in the end all MISSED it!!

HEY GUY!! CAN I TREAT U TO MOVIE?
I TREAT YOU !I irene treat you i will treat you to a movie date.. aft tt supper okay, dim sum oso can, or u wan dou jiang you tiao =)
Oh ya..its jus another excuse tt i am using all bcos i wana meet u!
Dun bu li wo le lahz.....

and the DVD lehz, House Of Wax!! When lorh.....haiz, tink u sure watch le also bahz...

ends at 6/16/2005 12:35:00 AM

Tuesday, June 14, 2005Y

HAPpie
BiRThdAy
Raven!!!!!!

my phoNe line goT fuLLy suSpendeD =x
Got new pHone to Use but sad..caNt use it! Outstanding bills lorh...
call my hOme if l00kin for mE okays.
sorry..i noe its very very troublesome..

for thOse who dun haf my hm no...then i also dunnoe how on eaRth u all goIn to fiNd me...

msn: chino_rene@hotmail.com
email: icecherriess@yahoo.com.sg

2WeEks termbreAk..shoUld be worKin..Sorrie, let me work can...projects....
i promise i'll work lesser once sch starts and will work hard for all projs...Sorry...

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talkin to mY deAr in MSN jus now..hee..suddenly he remind me tt i haven been downloading songs le..haHAz!! Download alot =D WEe! Recently very into "Lian Ai Da Ren" by Luo Zhi Xiang and Xiao S! Saw the video from my hp..SO niCe!!! The SOng is soo sweet soo niCE!

and download many other songs toO..including a techno! haHA..last Wed went Devils heard this teChno soNg-"SatisFactiOn" think it sounD not bAd..veri clubbiNG! HahA...omg, the lyrics is so lame lorh~ waHaha.

u all see lorh..

Push me And then just touch me

Do I can't get my satisfaction

Satisfaction, satisfaction, satisfaction, satisfaction

Push me And then just touch me

Do I can't get my satisfaction

Satisfaction, satisfaction, satisfaction, satisfaction

ITS JUS REPEATING LORH!!

oh ya..it oso sound very ~~~.....

And BLACK EYE PEAS =D Dun Phunk with my HeaRt!!

ThiS song is another version of "Shut Up" LisTen once and will keEp sinGin into ur HeAd!!! Wow...veri nicE to dAnce oso

to someone...
many things was keep hush hush about it, no one, neither of us wanna bring up and talk about it..well, yesshh,maybe there's nth much to talk abt it anymore...cos situation is getting more and more tense and mayb nothing can be salvage the situation...everytime i haf to drag to meet up..even the thought that meetin up make me feel so down so low morale and sianz..i reali didn want to meet at all..haf to try hard to find things to talk..cant talk too much or u may think im such a nuisance or wateva..mayb u dunnoe but wat u say may jus be a casual remark but oh please..it make such a big impact on me and i was soo affected about it...thought all of us know each other well enuff..but sadly, its not....i hate wed thur alot u noe..bcos i dunnnoe how to face ya..all i could sense was awkardness and all of us may jus be putting on a fake front, masks...

ends at 6/14/2005 11:05:00 PM

Monday, June 13, 2005Y

today took off bcos wana go chinatown eat porridge with my mom....

but realise today is Monday!!

and they are closed..........................

wah piang!!!

Luckily i got a feeLing* so went to check online...

Whew -_-" BUt haiz soo disappointed!!

see...the porridge is so yUmmY!!
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and the BBQ Chiz wing =) DroOlingzz...
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in the end...went to Bugis.
again lorh!! OMG..these few weeks keep goin there! Ytd jus went oso wahAHha

Didn buy anything but eat alot.
the hakka dish-"Suan Pan Zi", Crystal Jade Chix wiNgs, YU PIAN MIFEN(yea,agn!), theN Mos Burger Iced Milk Tea and went to Lot 1 Pasar Malam bought Tea Egg(FAV!!) and Taiwan Sausage(SuddenlY got the crave 4 it)

When i was still a young kiD...i love to eat the colourful $1 a packet de candy floss, and i also sure buy one whole sweet corn wrapped with aluminium foil and with butter and salt coated!! WOW!!

ends at 6/13/2005 02:17:00 PM

Sunday, June 12, 2005Y

**Time for nonsense blogging~~~

i think i should call a particular someone up.
Cos he didn call me up aft that wk since we went out
why huh? donnoe ehh.

reasons why i shld call him:
=bcos mayb i can/able 2divert my attention from some1 to him
=bcos he can fufill my NEEDS and oso my WANTS
=bcos im getting more l o n e l y
=bcos he mention tt he might b gettin a car and im abit,jus abit lazy to take public transport
=bcos he's not poor, he's sort-off 'well-off" since got stable income
=bcos he oso like clubbing and i cant resist clubbin!!
=bcos i can get a companion for clubbin and i dun need to bring $$ right? Hooray!!
=bcos he dun detest shoppin so can go shopping 2gether..
=and he paid for the expenses and everything!!
=and good food alwaes!!
=bcos he suggest we can go on hols 2gether and i jus need 2pay for my shoppin stuffs, food,airfare,accomdation all on him

okay lah..im just joking. im just thinking whether he will look for me anymore anot lah =)

okays, im stillllll veryyyyyyy childish. stillllll veryyyyy immature to handle things well.

todae learn something meaningful from raven =) yesshh...it doesn matter if two cant b together..if keep insisting on being together...it will spoilt n erase all the past sweet memories...so why not leave it and let them choose their own happiness...
(*haha, too lousy in words, didn reali make it sound too meaningful*)

hao xing ku!! i try keeping something to myself and dun tell others..but reali hao xing ku....i even haf to bluff lorh......

Yesterday i said a lie. wahahaha. but its not one affecting anyone lah, so no worries! No effect at all. HAO FAN AHH!!!

i jus wan my wish to come true.
But how to make it cum true when i didn even work on it?

i think i get really exhausted easily!! Cant stay out for too long..cant endure w/o sleep for too long..Ytd my day of 8am to another day 5am i really almost "peng san"..last time ahh, sure stil very hyper!!

i reached home bathe oso tired ahh...bcos too tired, do things halfheartedly...i think i dropped my ear ring inside *toilet bowl* and the box of cotton wool dropped to the wet floor!! haiz!!! too exhausted =x Gettin old, mus get enuff slp!!

this time round, dropped the pink earring. tt time i lost a simliar red colour one at devils, very sad so bought back the same pink colour one. Now even the pink oso gone!! Went to bugis jus now and cant find it......let me count..i lost 1 lipgl0ss, 1 lipbrush, 2 earrings over there before liaoz..last time he lost hp there oso.

i haf alwaes feel very uncomfortable when i go clubbin with my buddiess, maybe not them but him. ALWAYS. Tats why i alwaes try to get new frens to join!! I cannot, dun like to dance along with them or him. Very uncomfortable. I can be at these places with anyother frens, guys...i can dance jus together with a guy....any....but sorry not him. Unable lah. Alcohol make PEOPLE unable to think/react appropriately lah.

ends at 6/12/2005 10:35:00 PM

very confusing very confusing very confusing.

after work yesterday went to Jun's 21st bday chalet =) HuMm..cos dun really noe her personally so bought her a $20 topshop voucher and a butterfly braclet. Suppose to be share by jus 3 person, raynor, lipsin and me.......

but when i know that Jack and Mary wanna tag in and share with us........i was pretty pissed =x Heyhey, its sooooo pathetic and unpresentable lorh, a small gift shared by so many of us?! and chillzz...its soo insincere!

...and worse of all..when i saw what Mary msg to Lipsin i was even more hot! HEY LADY! We arent oblidged to inform you if we NEED to share the pressie with you right? Can ya use nicer tone when talkin to lipsin?! SO RUDE!

Pple...yes, its not the monetary value that counts =) its REALLY the thoughts the sincerity that counts!! Why sometimes pple didn haf this feeling? i will be so sad if i got a present that a friend just-anyhow-get it...

in the end....just four of us share lah =) i become very quiet during the jouney to ECP bcos i was not happie!

April jus went with someone.
May went agn for mday.
June went for jun's chalet...wahaha

Stay there for a very short while there. Feel so odd there -__-" Aniwae, she got realli saboe terribly!! Wahaha. Make me feel so scared if i gonna celebrate my 21st bday! But well....its 6mths after graduating and probably few mths after workin on new job and i oso dunnoe at tt time...who's my close frens..who's the one im still in very good terms with...who's still my frens..oh ya..i only remember by 21yrs old..i mus b blissfully attached =) HeE..

Was at West Coast Mc-Cafe from 11pm to 3am..........wahaha. SO LONG lorhz~ Omg..talked so much also, i was soo tired..keep endUring!! Well...many things arent within our control. im in a dilemma..same as him,my buddy! Okays..i think goona be okay. As mention in previous blog...we are adults and most important we are so good friends..dont make the friendship turn sour too...sound veri "chin-nah" lah, but its FATE that bought us, all of us, ALL together and having sweet good memories =)

~~*Treasure what's in our hands! *~~

~~*Treasure what's in our hands! *~~

~~*Treasure what's in our hands! *~~

~~*Treasure what's in our hands! *~~

West Coast park ytd right? Yeahh...suddenly i just miss him alot! Waiting for miracle to happen..searchin for it...lookin for his car hoping he gonna b here..wana walked over to his hse..~*hao xiang ni~* his voice..his laughter his swaning his smile all..everything...

okayz...boring. goin out now! Meetin Raven =)

ends at 6/12/2005 02:25:00 PM

Thursday, June 09, 2005Y

Last night reached home feeling fine and okay but this morning wake up feeling like puking with headaches and sleeping. But went ahead wif lessons from 1 to 3pm

Oh well..i got stood up today from my ex bf!

We were suppose to watch Madagscar,4pm. BUT he didn contact me at all to confirm the meeting time or wateva. So aft lesson..i decided to msg him ask him how's the plan....and he told me he jus wake up! He went clubbin last nite drank alot and reach home late..and dats why! I was fed up enuff so i said,"meet up oso so xinku so dun meet ba".

I felt so sad =( i reali dun like pple who are so bo-sim...he can tell me he dun mind watchin Madagscar for the 2nd time with me, he can tell me he look forward but in the end he stood me up...there's alarm clock to wake him up rite?

I realise there's frens whom i'm not worth being respected, important, promises kept..............haiz...yuan lai im worth nth in their heart....

in the end since being aeroplaned, i missed the show..i haf to shop alone, with no extra inspirations to get pressies for frens bday...and i got no dinner.....feeling weak all over now!! i could have spend my day doin something else right..u tired den i not tired meh..so disappointing.....

and when i reached home......i saw something which made me even more headache..........i dunnoe wat to say when i saw it...all my assumptions/doubts/curiousity seems to come to the truth with everything proven..the thing didn came much as a surprise or shock either, i was absolutely calm. ermm...grown old enough to tackle the problem le right? Rather than pretending or taking as if nth happens. Maybe maybe maybe we can clarify or talk...alot of things are jus easier to say than to do! I don wan to give the wrong signal, feelings or wateva animore. im sorry.

as much as i wan to tell someone my thoughts, im afraid another someone will tarnish my hopes! Well...life's nv unfair rite? im so selfish

okays..pictures! got a few more in my phone(temporarily mine). All taken during Sat KTV

must be someone 'toetoe' take this shot . dun even noe where this was taken!

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somehow got force to take this two pix together...cos very qiao both wear same colour top...my buddy boon and me..

but nvm...heng this two nv turn out ugly

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wen and me singing with daniel at the right and boon at the left Image hosted by Photobucket.com

raynor and lipsin
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wen and me again...
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and its us again..hahaz..
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and wen go solo now!
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ends at 6/09/2005 07:45:00 PM

waiting for my smelly hair to dry!! OMG..so smelly! HahA..bopian lah. The stench is tOo strong leh =x jus took my supper at alzhar too..hao bao ahh! teh tarik n tomyam mee WEe~

Devils Devils Devils!!! yeaPp...went dere aft one mth plus! Wif lipsin and today-no-longer-a-civilian-anymore=BoonKeong!! My Sis aeroplaned me....haiz. So mani times tt she aeroplaned me!! Sobz..saded! Miss her soo muCh!

VERY OKAY now...jus 1 vodka cranberry n 1 vodka oj n abit of corona..no drunk no vomit can walk hm can bathe nicely..wahaha..

Didn see the usual pple i'll see todae..instead saw my sec sch gals. haiz..they are all still together, still very much in goOd bonds lorhz! Only saw two of them as they were dancin in the podium! OMG...if only i can dance at podium oso, haHa..seems so FUN! Oh Yeahh..we waved and smiled =) ~*SO GLAD..~*

So sianz u nOe..i've been dere so many times and with so many different pple...miss the times when i went with xxx..so happie so fun..but tt was so longggg aGo le.....one month ago went devils oso veri gao xing de..rem i waited one hr for the queue and went in only at 3am stayed till 6am and of cos its bcos i got a new fren and he sent me home.....haiz..saded..noe him 2mths but we ONLY went out 3times!!!

I'm really sad...he's obviously nt interested...

ends at 6/09/2005 04:22:00 AM

Sunday, June 05, 2005Y

No clubbin on Saturday nite! Instead, head down to Kbox Cineleisure for abt 5hrs of singing!! All the way till 5am..voice was so hoarse!! and sleeppzzy..mayb we are all getting abit older le, so cant reali endure without slp for too long!

Everyone of us was so indecisive tt nite wahaha =D Mdm Wong is like so inconvenient to go to and age limit and Devils is my fav but hmm age limit oso and well, Music Underground is just so awful lorh. OMG! A place full of lians and bengs..such a low class place. I seriously think anyone of us belong to there at all..

Nvm..LAdies nite on Wed! Hope my sista comin...its alwaes nicer to go club wif a few gfs ard..imagine the image of a girl dancing together wif jus all guys ard her? Not nice rite? And aniwae my sis loves devils like me too =)

Im at such an advantage u noe?! Changing a almost-abt-to-die 6610 to a Sony Ericsson phone. But seriously very stress leh , xchanging phones!! Camera phone but take pixs oso cant trsf to computer leh =x and well...alot alot of nice msgs all gone..still intact in my 6610. I dunnoe why its stil inside the phone and not the sim card. All those msgs are from my dEaR* and its jus like a pill of happines:"pOp it and i'll feel so mucH haPpie n swEet" ** HEY, its a very private msg..so u dUn read le lah oks. Thankss!

Received a surprise call!! Almost 3mths and thot the contact will just die off. Tt time he gif a missed call but i oso didn reply back to him...I didn wana to continue it oso lah, cos no point..so tiring so irriating ma. hAiz..i was listening to FM usin earpiece so didn look at Caller Id and jUs pick up the call.....and yehh...it was him.....haiz! He say he wana meet n haf dinner together..told him i cant cos timing is wrong..but he sound abit persisent and of cos he ask nicely so i agree...

Was thinking of lying to him tt i already haf a bf but given his personality he sure ask alot so i dropped the idea...i didn have much to talk to him animore and he was asking why i didn call him contact him...so i said i actuali feel tt there's not much point since tt time he alreadi said till so bluntly in msn and since we are alwaes quarreling non stop and since he alwaes tink i'm in e wrong.....he said something like so u realise who's in e wrong alreadi ma? i told him IT WAS YOU..not me. He was of cos fuming hot hahaz.. haiz. But well...i didn feel tt i was sooo much in fault! Why tilll now he stil tink i'm in e wrong? So irritating. ANiwae....im not very bothered abt this oso lahz.

oh ya, we went to bugis..hmm, "Pxxxx Steakhouse". forgot the name le!! I took the cheap and safe choice-Fish&Chips and he took Steak...food was nice and not veri expensive but waiting time was too long..Nx time recommend it to my frens! Jus need to walk straight from yu pian mifen stall!

studyin for test but nth gets into my head..mind jus cant settle down to study!! how how how? all my icas are so badly done =( todae sunday..if only i spent my sunday wif someone, nua-ing at sofa, watchin movies......whyWhY?? all the empty talks only.........so many other pple are askin me out but.........

*Raynor left halfway while we were singing in kbox..didn even noe he left till boon told us..thot he jus went toilet..haiz..raynor ahh~~if u reali tired den jus tell us den u dunneed to force urself come ma..ritez...its okay wat. aiyooozz. make me feel so guilty cos it seems like im alwaes the one who alwaes wan more pple to come...

ends at 6/05/2005 07:01:00 PM

Thursday, June 02, 2005Y

a particular someone make me feel so demoralised and sad again
=( haiz..mayb im not worth even anything in his eyes!

another thingy to the many of them...
i jus haf the best interests of heart for everyone..i jus haf the good intentions to all of ya...but well, maybe no-one noes it and no-one reali understand...

im jus being kpo lah

haiz nx week pple(s) ask me out..YyY?? yYyy those tat i wan go out wif nv ask me out~ instead i mus ask..i dunwan to b a nuisance or behave as i throw myself....

am i reali soooooo 'tao ren yan'?! so limited charms? oh ya...i tink it seems tt im reali those tt throw myself in...u see...alot of guys i hang out wif...veri close for a period of time den...awhile and dats it goodbye...

actuali my wish is just very simple...

Nelle, mayb u can reali start arranging for the dbl date le horz.

and also the necklace tat Lyon gave me was partially broken!!!
Hao xin tong.....

going to cry till my tears fill up the bucket now......

ends at 6/02/2005 11:55:00 PM