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Thursday, March 31, 2005Y

Cannot let anyone down, so dats the reason why I need to blog! Wahaha. Okok..im bored, im lonely and Im reali poor girl. I jus wish I can be more financially capable, more sociable and a better person in all areas. I tink I totally sucks. REALI. Sometimes I myself even dislike myself to the core!! Im too bored…too lonely >.<

Creatin motion tweening, timeline, create a new scene, add layers, shape tweening, alpha, publish settings, masking, import, library, F8, F11, symbols and buttons,,MACROMEDIA FLASH MX!!! Its reali driving me super crazy! NOW, I die die oso mus do my proj alone..tis assignment will be the one which determines my grades for my tis 3rd and LAST stopover!! Aniwae….im almost done with the thingy..so glad…I did it myself..i feel the happiness man..haha..i manage to grab the hold of Flash..although it dun look nice n pro..but overall its my effort…Mayb somehow its not tt i dislike Flash, perhaps jus tt I cant do a nice one ??

But yippee. Down to two more weeks for tis stopover =) Cant wait to go back to classical. I wan modules modules modules..i wan shorter hrs in sch!!! Year 3 i am!

Chalet’s over =) Kinda a successful one. Gatherin wif frens, sit back n relax, chit chats, bbq-ing, drinkin, games, eating, sleeping. And my long awaited SwiMMing session!!! OnE WORD: SHUANG!!!! HahA…although its jus a mere 45mins of swim. Wore my two piece to swim..eekss..luckily not mani pple, cos I look super erxin sia. Skinny long legs no assets. Eeekss.

Wana thanks all who came down…to make the stay fun and memorable..hope there’s more chances again for us to gather..dunnoe when oso?? Mayb durin dunnoe who’s weddin dinner. Whose’s child one mth bday, eat red eggs or shark fins or abalones or Buddha jump over the wall??
Thanks to bday boy Boon, buddies Lipsin, Raynor, Jack, Frens We Yong, Xin Rong, Jun, Daniel, Jack, Mary and my darlings Rachel n Fiona..
hahA.. Rachel and Fiona said Boon is talented, can sing well, said Raynor is
si-wen, said Lipsin is friendly n approachable. Said Mary is yaya and Jun looks proud(actuali its soo true..the way they look at them when I intro the two gers to all of them) said We Yong looks veri familiar when they jus reach dere in 20mins.(mus b someone highprofile den in shuqun sec) and said Daniel is handsome which I agrees.

Miss my bed the most when away for two nite..but miss the water heater and aircon at the chalet now. My home don have these~ Lousy! Haf to endure bathin wif cold water..hate it..the bed dere sucks..blanket suxs too..didn haf gd slp at all!!
Tues went to sch half zombie!
Wed…i MIA from sch..[pray hard tt nobody,no supervisors, no admin no unauthorized person reads tis]…told Wen to help me sign in and sign out.
Todae went to sch, and I tink im declared SAFE. Successfully plan! Feelin so shiok NOW. Didn waste money on MC and run away from sch so siao sa..but hor..actuali yesterday the feeling is too horrible..i kept worrying if anyone will find out I did tat dishonest act..keep thinking and worryin…haha…

Shoppin at Bugis/Orchard on wkdays at early noon is so great!!!! But ytd majiam a livin corpse walkin ard, soo tired but still wana walk walk. Not so crowded, take ur own time to see see and shop shop. Saw a nice ¾ pants at Osmose. Tried out a top n skirt at MNG. Oh ya..rejected Sis offer to Devils oso. Too zombie to stay out till late le!! No money oso =x

Didn get to mention tis to other pals..but I severed my ties wif ‘M’ liao. Hopefully it’s a clean cut! Actuali im feelin so much more relax after the decision to break off all contacts. Deleted hm no/Hp no, msn contact and frenster! No more tense moments, no more fights no more quarrels and so much more relieve!!! No more ponderin if he wil call on wkends nite off, on fri book out nite and wkends….hopefully dun meet dao in elsewhere..but actuali im a funnie person..though I haf no feelings for him…but I seriously dislike the feelin of seein him with other gers..not jus him..for some others too..why? I dunnoe oso. Nvm =x

Im bored!! Even p/t laogong wan watch TV dunwan msn..sob..okok..i go slp bah! Im anti social in sch. Im attitude. Im lonely…………………hahaa..pls help me get a guy soon..i need one…I seriously need one………yehh hahha.

Movies ticket are goin up agn! Wkends by $1 Wkdays by $0.50! ANGRY!!!

Kk lah..so long blog..i go slp!

ends at 3/31/2005 09:34:00 PM

Sunday, March 27, 2005Y

Don’t even noe where to start from!

Wednesday
Aft sch, dinner @ Hm and last min decision to go out. Meet up wif frens at Tanjong Mrt. Headed to a Ktv pub first. Kaoz, it was a gay pub! And I didn realize it was, until I sat there for like almost 30mins? But when I stepped in, I already got a strange feeling le. And damn!! Singapore is reali just a DOT! My fren’s fren turn out to be someone I know, someone my mom knows, live at my area dere and work at Imm oso. And he was soooooo scared tat I will tell my mom abt me meetin him there. He was irriating lah, to keep remindin me tat I CANT tell my mom abt seeing him there. Tat means, take it as I dunnoe him. Know why he was scare? BCOS IT WAS A GAY PUB!!!!! Well….my fren told me he was more to a Bi, than a gay! -_-“ Nevertheless..going to a gay pub was still okay one lah. Not so scary. Except tt dere’s only waiter, no waitress. And shared toilets?

Aft staying there for two hrs..we took a cab to Dbl-o!!! WeEe! Ladies nite =) But so wat? Hahaa…already drink alot when I was at tat place le. So jus one glass of v.cranberry nia. Clubbin on a ladies nite is good. IT’S BUDGET CLUBBIN!!!!
And I saw..JinSen! An ex. Our first sentence was,"Why u here? Not there meh?" HAAhahaa….cos we are both regulars at devils one…aft goin on seperate ways, i felt tt he’s someone u can play wif, hang out wif, but nv a fren u can reali tok to. We haf bcom a Hi-Bye fren le..saying hallo when u see them! And perhaps a hug when see each other oso. Then Bye when u leave the place.
And of cos saw my p/t laogong. Haa..he’s working dere ma…and quitting soon on april! To dunnnoe which pub lorh~

My fren was drunk! I’m not sure if we drank a lot or its reali the case tat when ya havin probs, Dun drink…well, I tink it is. We drank abt the same amt, I didn haf any kicks at all lorh…Yeah..she’s drunk. And it was funny seeing someone in tat drunken state!! So cute so funnie. HahAa…sent her home first. And I didn went home to slp, I went to my sis place for e nite! I was veri veri happie tat I didn went home to slp…I was really tat happie! I hate home..i hate. Its not a home, it’s a house.

She live at hougang..near my sch ma. Saw those unfamiliar places and realized tt Hougang is really veri veri big!!! Ya ya, I saw Monfort sch for e first time!! It was Lyon’s sec sch!! When I took the cab and bus to sch..my eyes jus kept looking ard…like so sua-ku! Livin in the cck/bp area..there’s onli tibs bus. No sbs buses…I like sbs buses lorh, so much more comfty and got tv mobile!!!
Anyway…we were so tired tt we didn bathe to slp..smelly, I know..haha, bopian. Wake up in e morning and her dad even make coffee for me. So happie. Even my mom dun make coffee for me lorh. Haiz.

Thursday
I slowly got the feeling of hangover in the mid-noon! Wasn’t reali sleepy cos I tink I slept well for the nite at my sis hse. And thur mark the end of my mmd proj. Finally finally. Watch The Eye10 wif frens aft sch. And practically I stone away at Indochine tt nite wif them! It was soo boring dere!!! My second time dere. My first time dere was last yr june, wif Vinc. Miss him~

Yeahh..i tink dere’s five of us dere. And we did something lame tt nite..at the road between wisma n border..we shouted ONE TWO THREE and we bend our body down and dat was one of the steps in TheEye10!! We went in to Orchard Towers to look ard oso…there ah, majiam a smelly genting highlands!! So damn smoky!! And disgusting “WOMEN”……so scary over there.
End the nite at ard 1am and nite rider home…was pretty scared to go home tt nite, the stairscase, the lift, the mirror!!! The end results of watchin The Eye10!!!!! Go watch the movie..!!! Its scary..reali man!! Kept closing my eyes, coverin wif my jacket and even screamed once!!! HahA…and oso, laugh like siao. A comedy cum horror movie. But their jokes are lame!! Okok..go watch. I dunwan to blog n blog and in e end I disclose all the contents!

Yeah!!! On the way to the movie….i saw..him! okok..the malaysian guy working at imm? Mood jus turn good aft seein him =) Haven seen him for a long time le..shake hands and haf a small chat. We actuali didn contact anymore. He claimed tt he lose his hp, so he took my phone and call his own no, so he will haf my no. Said tt we call each other aft our own activites, aft my movie, aft his ktv..but NO. There wasn’t ani calls comin in or goin out..i was more to waitin for him to call me though~ I tink he’s attached, and I jus dunwan to be too much contact wif him bah. He’s a nice guy…but too bad. Haha.

Friday
Malays malays malays!! I was veri angry wif my colleague! And angry at work!

Saturday
Work. Haf lunch wif Lipsin. Boon and Raynor.
AND…..i was so attracted to the guy..he’s reali veri charming veri veri veri veri charming…..his eyes…so attractive…jus like a dream…prince charming…really…nv haf tt feelin before…hahah..okok, gua zhang? Seriously, I find him super attractive. He’s working at XX Jewellery……aiyo, I wasn’t the one who served him though…cos I scared I will tongue-tied -_-“ Nx sat and sun. I need to walk past XX Jewelley agn

Sunday
Work till 4pm and goin to buy stuffs for bbq! Boon and me nia, how to take???

I slept at 12 am jus now and wake up at 315am…and I suddenly dun feel like sleepin so I blog..i felt tt I have veri little time for myself….im bored, im lonely..

Chalet is coming! Stil troubled abt how to go to sch from there….i sure damn tired in sch on tues and wed!!

Even my blog entries are boring…..

Ok! Time to slp….
My XX GUY…wahaha…so handsome!

ends at 3/27/2005 04:18:00 AM

Tuesday, March 22, 2005Y

changing clothes, changing toothbrush, eating, drinking, goin out...this wat we do often....
so jus like all these...im changin a new url again!
dunlinkme dunlinkme dunlinkme in ur blog. thankkkkksssss

in this world, dere's lots of irriating pple. irriating pple!! like wat they say, if got money ah, pay bangas to go rape her upside down!! eekss..to her. why so kpo lah! u busybody freak. teachers' pet =x yucks. see u once i pui u once. see u no up! nvm lah..i tink she jus wan more n more pple to hate her? lookin at her makes me feel like puking...eeeee!

YESTERDAY first time leave my room earli to attend to something. and lucki enuff, the teacher came to room and see us sign out one by one...was unable to get them to sign out for me. wah lau ehhh sianz. not jus me alone..cos mani others oso went off earli. But now the teacher didn even question us abt why didn sign out??!!! Cum ask me..i got vaLid reasOns de..

another irriating freako Liza...damn her. Most of us dun like her oso lorh..well she sucks. she's proud fat arrogrant tink highly of herself sacrastic. and most of all she's naive young and yr 87. dunnoe how maniiii months junior then me in work! and she dun eat PORK one lah!! okok..racist, im!! she haf workin attitude oso k!

First time irriated me..was mths ago.
Lisa:u got bf?
Me: No, i dun haf.
Lisa: ohh k
i keep quiet..cos i dun like to entertain,talk to pple i dunnoe
i dun wana paiseh both of us, so i ask her back lorh..
Me: Den u? Got bf?
Lisa: i oso dun haf.
Me: ohh ok..
Lisa: But i wan find a bf leh..no bf veri sianz..
Me:okay ma, dun say till liddat. sometimes single veri good too.
Lisa: No...got bf better one...
well..I'M SURE U NOE HOW IT FEELS TO HAF NO BF. right?
Me: Sense the sacrasticsm so fast fast shoot her back..no, i m perfectly fine, doin good withoutany bf. i've lots of frens ard me. =) winkk!

Sunday incident:
(on fri,she called me and ask if i can work till 10pm instead of 6pm..i saw no,cos need to do proj[reali ok])
she came at 6pm and asked me in a slightly loud tone
Lisa: When u goin to finish ur proj?
Me: No..not so soon, i stil haf other projects to do oso,
Lisa: Huh, U GOT PROJ TO DO, THEN U TINK I GOT NO PROJ TO DO MEH>
Me(veri angry and hot liao):WAH PLS K, IM DOIN ATTACHMENT IN SCH AND ITS CLIENT BASED PROJS K!

HOT Ahhh!! after awhile later..i tell her..." wah, tok to me in tat tone hUH!"

DAMN!!!! Slap her- *piak*

my period haven come....dunworrie..im veri safe. i dunneed go watsons >.<>

finally my supervisor came n distribute work to me. and i finish it in two hr plus..haha..he wan it onli on thur...but i finish le =)
but sometimes comin to sch but got nth much to do..reali make me haf the thought of not comin..but waste money for MCs..
down to three weeks of 830-6!

ohh..i've a veri good seat leh...im facin the window and i can see the blue blue sky and alot of planes flyin so low and near...all big big one...i e ven can see wat airline issit..haha

i make new specs le..can wear out nx time..dunneed alwaes lenses animore. can dun alwaes buy the solutions le..those solutions n stuffs are ex and one mth finish liao...wearin lenses reali veri high cost ahhh....only veri few pple see me wear specs..so if i wear to sch..pls dun laugh or 'tou siao'..thanks..i'll angry~~haha

mus eat lesser oso..not bcos gettin fat, but gettin poor..

but sorrie..i cant resist clubbin. seriously i cant. can nv erase away e indulgence. thur not goin dbl-o cos mus pay cover of $20 and not includin of first drink sia..hahaa. where shall i go? mdmwong hao ma? im goin wif Mel..so excited!!

Sat, my cousin came to slp over for e nite. haha, it was a veri veri last min plan. we will tokin away in msn and i popped out e ques and va-boom she's here. Our trademark is cookin maggie mee. at the wee hrs! yrs back, we will tokin tokin stayin up till late..feelin hungry we cook noodles at 4AM!! yea..we stayed up till tat earli! and tt nite...same...1am plus, we were hungry, so we went to 7-11 and buy noodles back to cook.

Now i noe the noodle name is "100" HAHAHA. and we were like so lame lorh..noe why we dun eat those prepacked food fr 7-11 such as nasi lemak,sandwiches,pasta or cupnoodles..which are much more convenient cos dun need cook....
its bcos...

WE ARE CHINESE MAH!!
those foods aren "CHINESE"..either anhmoh food or others or eat liao no kick one...
..

and too prove tt we are CHINESE MAH. she told me we should eat
"BAO"

tat kind of meat bao,char siew bao....
~~wah...so cold~~ hahaha
but nv buy la,its enuff wif the "100" instant noodles liaoz =D

other than tt..we drank vodka ribena and looked at old photos..and we missed our three little cousins..
and we tok alot too...
now i hoPe everythin is fine for her
JIA YOU =)
things will be fine

ends at 3/22/2005 03:57:00 PM

Monday, March 21, 2005Y

[ I wish I die =( ]

Irritating! Irritating! Irritating! Irritating! Irritating! Irritating! Irritating! Irritating! Irritating! Irritating! Irritating! Irritating! Irritating! Irritating! Irritating! Irritating! Irritating! Irritating! Irritating! Irritating!
Stupid! Stupid! Stupid! Stupid! Stupid! Stupid! Stupid! Stupid! Stupid! Stupid! Stupid! Stupid! Stupid! Stupid! Stupid! Stupid! Stupid! Stupid! Stupid! Stupid! Stupid! Stupid! Stupid! Stupid! Stupid! Stupid!
Irritating! Irritating! Irritating! Irritating! Irritating! Irritating! Irritating! Irritating! Irritating! Irritating! Irritating! Irritating! Irritating! Irritating! Irritating! Irritating! Irritating! Irritating! Irritating! Irritating!
Stupid! Stupid! Stupid! Stupid! Stupid! Stupid! Stupid! Stupid! Stupid! Stupid! Stupid! Stupid! Stupid! Stupid! Stupid! Stupid! Stupid! Stupid! Stupid! Stupid! Stupid! Stupid! Stupid! Stupid! Stupid! Stupid!
Eyes pain,swollen,Dark circles.Heartache.Jealous Sad.Unhappy.Useless.Tired.Pointless living.
Eyes pain,swollen,Dark circles.Heartache.Jealous Sad.Unhappy.Useless.Tired.Pointless living.

I was crying all the way when I was doing my work. I was on the verge of jumpin down, kill pple, smash things, die when I did the so so damn careless stupid mistake. Im so damn useless, own proj yet askin him to help me. Im so tired, physically worn out. Im unhappie cos I dun felt any love from them, which deemed to me. papa n mama. Im tired tired of dragging to work. Im so damn irritated by stupid fatty idiotic sarcastic proud arrogant lisa. I hate my life. I hate my financial situation. I hate the attitude im holding. I hate the issues which separate some pple wif me. I hate vinc. I hate marcus.

Actuali I hate myself most. I wana tell them how much I wan them to treat me nicer, to tell them how sad im, how horrible im feelin, how tired how xinku im, Despite the unless thoughts, doubts, ques I haf for them, I stil keep quiet.. BCOS I dun dare to tell. BCOS I DUN WAN TO HURT THEM. The most I did was, bein rude, and cried openly. She nv tok nicely to me. He and me cant communicate. If they dun luv me, why bring me here?

Im reali soo tired and restless.

*thanks boon. I stil need ur help…

*lipsin, free to meet on Sunday noon to get the bbq stuffs? hAven see u for a long time le.

*raven, u comin?

*to all, pls get the confirmation list. Thanks

*Huiwen, haf a nice trIp. Von VoyaGe. Take xtra care of urself/belongings/cash k. Not too much of impulse buyings.
Btw, its schedule on when?

*Thur dbl o: gers sorrie ah, its G. Fri eve, no free entry. Mus pay 20. worse=No first drinks.
How? Where? Mus be nice nice music

*I bought goggles =p
*but my period haven cum yet…faster pls..or I cant swim nx wk.

*cousin how’s everythin? Hao le ma?

*the eye!! the eye!! the eye!! the eye!! Exciting yeahhhhhh

*I haf been eatin reali alot…it doesn make me fat bah..but makin my cash flow bcomin lesser and lesser..

[ I wish I die =( ]

ends at 3/21/2005 02:00:00 AM

Thursday, March 17, 2005Y

I’ve got no topics to touch on..
anythin u all wan me to tok abt pls TELL ME!!

Boon, I owe u a big favour! Thanks a lot =) Pls try to finish up horh? BTW..im useless, I asked him to help me do my Flash n Photoshop project. And Raynor, Lipsin..Sunday free to help me reformat my com? Boon’s comin up to teach me his flash techniques.

Ytd was WED. Rem I said Zouk’s on? Hehh..i didn go lah. So tired, pekchek in sch le. Friday n Saturdays are always a better choice to go! *despite havin to pay abit more* aniwae…I cant stop the thought of goin happily clubbin =p

And im still workin workin and workin..abit no life leH! Sat and Sun work full shift and I dun reali enjoy goin out on wkdays aft sch..so worn out aft a long day in sch!!

Sometimes reali thought of stop bloggin leh. BuSy BusY and its reali no privacy..u nv noe who’s reading ur blog..as I said before, I enjoy sneakin n reading pple’s blog but I dislike those pple tat im NOT CLOSE wif to secretly read my blog. Esp those who search for my URL, or got it thru frens frens. Better dun let me noe u read!

Tml’s Friday =) Finally. Goin out to Bugis! Strollin ard there and heHh..Yu Pian Mifen wEeee~

Sianz..i dun noe wat I wan..i dunnoe wat I wish for..i dun understand..
Me n him.
perhaps Im JUST SO LONELY =/ So LONELY W/O hiM

Sometimes its jus tat I wan haf some chat wif him, to go out together..
Tried calling him on Sun, Mon, Tue..dropped him a sms oso..But he dun seems to reply/call back to me!

anyway im always saying im reali tired rite? YEah Lah..veri tireD. Havin to wake up soo earli for sch and the damn long hrs endurin in sch and worse..doin stuffs tat aren interested in. WhEw..its not reali reali so jialat in sch. Manage to submit my work on time.

SHall i ring him up tml? ShAll i ask my sis if she wan go out tml nite? i truely luvvv goin clubbin goin devils lah...

im addicted..im majiam indebted to dere..majiam married to dere..majiam blackmagic by them..majiam sign contract or bond wif them..haha..

its all bcos of Vinc fault~ who first bought me there. JuNe 03 sia..almost 2yrs.(tt time i i haven even 18 ahh!) I MISS U ..how are u? Ur a gd person by nature, Ur clever, Ur handsome,cute,humourus...i onli realise ur someone full of charisma aft we lose each other(well, pple said so la), Dun smoke so much..Dun drink so much..esp Dun drink n drive n slowly plsss..work hard n u'll b able to achieve wat u wan..i haf once luv ya lots..takecarez (*agn..as if he reads my blog =x)

And tml is the Creative Sales!! Sad..unable to get the thingy tat i want~ i buy 4D oso nv strike sia! NVm! Sat n Sun invest a dollar each bah!

OK..NOthIn else~
taTa =D

fallen a few times but we shall alwaes learn to pick up! I love u all alot, my dear pals.

COusin, wana tell u oso..though we arent always hangin out together..but i still luv u hor..reali..we grow up together..play at kampong, shit and gif dog eat, fight, quarrels, heart to heart talk, endurin
ur poo and last time when we were much younger, if we fight/quarrel..everyone will noe rite..cos if u sit infront of tv, i will sit at the sofa at the far end of the hse...or vice versa...hahaha...U will alwaes play a big role in my life!

ends at 3/17/2005 11:18:00 AM

Monday, March 14, 2005Y

Creative warehse sales from 18th-20th March. This is e one i wana get..BUT onli valid for sales on the 18TH!! FRIDAY...i got sch lah!! SADED...dun tell me to take MC for e day to get tis..sounds so lame! and if i am able to get it den its ok. BUT wat if i cant get it..?! Only for the first 20 customers lorh~~ haiz....I dun tink anyone will be so good to help me tOo horz..sadeD! 5GB, $149. all anione haf frens workin dere...can help me get it at the sales price~~

nTh mUcH happEn..working full shift for past 2days. SiaNzzz...work at imm somemore, far and eat alOne! but i rather go dere den other outlets..cos its alwaes happier 2wrk wif pple u r close wif and helpin out the nicer better supervisor...den helpin out some sucky woman! YaH sianz..went dere to work since dunnoe when ago..last time used to go dere work veri often..den goin back dere ytd gave me lots lots of sweeett memories =) i didn get to see the fren dere but i get to see another fren though~ happie aniwae!

fri raynor and me went to eat...hey u owe me one! u noe why~~~

called another person on sat nite. i tink tink and plan hao hao on the noon liao lorh before i shld call him...called one person also muz do 'homework' haiz~~ butbut..hUmm..amazingly finally we haf a short chat...no fights no quarrels.
BECAUSE he was sleeping......................
haiz? mayb reali is bcos he sleepin dats why e tok was a nice one! >.<

den on Sun called n msg him he didn pick up call or reply to my sms~

wana gO out wif him..

hOpe everyone is fine ya. take thiNGs easily and wateva it is...u noe i'll beside u all to lend a listenin ears or a company ouT~ orhkk..
lookin forward to the chalet!!

ends at 3/14/2005 11:15:00 AM

Friday, March 11, 2005Y

felt so amazing+funny and feelin abit out-of place when i was at the IT fair ytd =x Haha...somone who dislike Sim Lim, Funan IT mall, shoppin for IT, COM gadgets hor..actuali intiated to go to the IT fair. CoUsin tell me de, if not i oso dunnoe. Went wif Raven.

Actuali my intention was to look for a thumbdrive cum MP3 player. Seriously, i tink i need one. DUnnnoe why when everyone is attached to "EL" liao, all are flocking to buy one. FLASH FLASH FLASH. Savin in the floppy disk or where just not efficient and good lah.

THe IT fair was VERY CROWDED. THe stairscase from level one up to the exhibition hall was FULL one lorh. Okok..many things to see, alot alot. Many pple to see also. Sell com gadgets why mus do until majiam sellin cars meh? Gers wif FULL makeup done and skimpy clothes. So erxin la. Yah...back to IT fair. CHeap items also, many many endless brochures to take. Optical mouse at $9! Wah..lots of xbox games and other softwares!
Okk..i saw this one which kinda catches my eyes.
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:Features:
-Format: MP3/WMA/WAV
-PC Interface: USB2.0
-FM Tuner/ FM Recording
-Voice Recording
-ID3 Tag Display
-Lyric Synchro Function
-Music Equalizer Settings
-USB Storage Disk
-Backlit LCD
-Available Colours- Chrome Silver/ White
-Size: 87(L) x 32(B) x 22(H) mm

Do u all think its gd enuff? its $99 for 256MD. I didn buy it YET. $99 is not reali a large sum of money for this thingy but parting wif the money liao means i will be left wif veri little money for the whole mth. back to the fact tat i haf a upcomin chalet osooo..if onli i get sponsorship from thEm....haiz. aniwae. Creative's havin Warehse sales, which equals=CHEAP BARGAINS!! Who can go there help me see see..i workin on sat sun lorh..Anyone..anyone..

Veri tired now leh..hungry man. 9.08am nia...slept at 3am lorh! talking to a fren and doin uploadin of pixs..my com need reformat again leh..i reali tink so..irriating slow leh! not goin out tonite..save money save money and rest n recuperate at home...

Remember i said before..sometimes dunlike, scared to go to crowded places-many pple...cos its basically i scared i "du tio" the someone/tat one..den i walked my eyes alwaes wondered around..haiz. why!! saw him three times outside liao lorh...and.. Its alreadi marked a year =) read all his hp msg,look at his wallet, look at how my name changes from 'irene' to 'ivan', their pixs and words he blurted out in tat halfdrunk half asleep condition. ONE YEAR leh. i oso remember i was so hurt and so sad tat i cried like siao man....miss him a little. WoNder how is he....

yeAh. show u all the long awaited pixs! alot alot leh. pls be patient =) taken last thur. yah..we are all siao pple...love them man!!
these are the 'more stable,more decents one"

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we are all eating at Sakura!! and here's lydia fiona choikwan rachel.

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and another one of lydia fiona me rachel.

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starting to be abit unstable n siao liaozzz~~~

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chiokwan n me. she veri funnie ger one la..bully her oso lorh. cos she's e youngest!! 1988!!

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i feed her eat cake!! veri pro one hor, take photo mus 'chu' all
kinds of pattern...see? she got wear the napkin ard her neck!

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well, choikwan n rachel are 'ai-ren'...

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but rachel and me are 'qing ren'.....

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and fiona love all three of us...

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but i tell u all...i oso like fiona..

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and lydia also....veri complicated relations~~

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wat kind of pattern is tat...orh...all our money goes into uob bank..!

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see!! the qing rens are takin photos agn...

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rachel is high liao~~~!! weE...skirt lift higher ma...hahaa

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and fiona love her so much tat she hug her legs..

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so complicated r/s but we still smile happily...haa...toilet lai de lorh~~

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this one is nice!!

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got style rite!! so cool~~ wAhahah

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okAY! we are stable now!!

FiNiSH! hOpe u aLL enJoy it! Almost an hr to do this entry sia~~

luv these gers alot...saded. not workin together animore..

Lipsin and the rest..Meet either on thur/fri can ma?? cos mon i play badmintion aft sch. tue i wan go home watch tv. wed nite MAYB go zouk!! so left thur or fri...

ZOUK! neXt WED anyboDy?!

ends at 3/11/2005 09:10:00 AM

Thursday, March 10, 2005Y

540pm now. in the room waiting for the time to be sign out! time spend here was kinda resourceful, meaning tat we haf things to do. Freedom was practised here. One supervisor incharge of so mani pple and seperate rooms here. He oso bochap bochap one lorh..not veri strict. SO DATS GOOD. Finally found smth good abt here. Can actuali go off earli or cum late leh~ hOoo. But mus pray u heng hor.
feelin veri contented lookin at my flash e-resume man. sweat doin it sia!

Later goin out wif raven =) i dunnnoe how long didn see him le! We are goin to the IT fair.

hate typin blog in sch..cos i noe pple infront,beside,behind me will peep-peep. so now the fonts i use are those small ones..haa..im veri selfish. as much as i love sneakin to pple's blog and read secretly, i dunwan pple to do that. i noe its veri bad. haha...aniwae, found out three new blogs to read. hey, found it from yahoo! jus type xxxxx, gotcha. FOUND! okk...

Hallo Li-Er! today she came to 'acknowledge' me...wahaa..wat a word. BUt reali lorh..heard her name, noe of her existence for so so long le, since when raynor noe her. den i go 'da-ting' is who lai de...but didn find her. Now i noe who le...hee....wah lau, so lame oso. I actuali oso noe her durin start of TEP at iBid, she's HUihui fren lorh~~ after one big round circle den noe who is her. haha....

i love these songs..my webby and my blog. retro-ish?! reminds me of dbl-o fri n sat nite. bUt their retro nite...cannot lah..mayb reali tooooo retro. Unlike devilsbar de retro veri nice....songs like DANCIN QUEEN!!!! YMCA!!!!!!!!!! enjoy dancin to the beat~~ wee...its friday nite tml.

tata. packin bag tiMe!

ends at 3/10/2005 05:39:00 PM

Wednesday, March 09, 2005Y

READ thE tagboard ma? Come follow Us!
“wo de tongue bei tang`1 tang`4 dao`4”
MUS FAST Ok..haa..for those who dunnoe yet~ Aft translate, It means, my tongue got scalded by soup!

hallo..no updates man! sorrie yah..busy busy busy..no time to blog..nothin too happening oso so nothing to say here..so divert all my time doin sch work or do other other stuffs rather than blogging. Humm..i spend TOO much time facin com, placing my fingers on keyboard liao..sometimes even feel my back and fingers reali strained! CC 2 alreadi confined me in room whole day long..now ELDC oso..wah sianz..worse…learn flash?! DO one simple job using flash, i’ll oso feel like dying man..keep re-doing and re-doing, editing and editing….NEVER EVER a easy job on me…kaoz…flash…nearly went to commit suicide lorh..cant even walk den wan me to fly sia…I dun even haf the basics..

and more jialat man…one 20% assignment to submit in. U tell me lorh..how to do man! Mus use Flash n Photoshop kk…siao liao~~ going to die soon.. Boon pls help me out man…

No time to sleep long hrs..no time to tok on phone..no time to read newspaper at home..no time to read magazines..no time to call u all, no time to check things out……………….so mani things lah.

If onli I study in nyp ten yrs ago..i dunnneed to do all these shit rite! Last week doin website..now doin flash…oh ya..take a look at my ugly website…http://sg.geocities.com/icecherriess. I onli like the first page, bcos of e eye, the photo gallery cos many pixs la and oso the iBid section and lastly..the song in my main page!! Its titled “SwaY”!!!!!!! HooOo…

Hey…buddies! All busi wor? gotta plan for the chalet thingy leh?! Okkk…huiwen! How are u. Haven been hearin anything abt u at all….im not reading ur blog..the rest of u all leh…

Ytd went to my cousin’s hse =D She helped me wif my flash thingy. And cousin!! Nx time I oso wan take photo wif QQ okay?? She’s so cute la…now I tink I reali not so phobia abt those pets bah..but tell her dun bark or keep licking me man..its soooo itichy lah.

Sorrie..lazzie to go out sometimes aft sch. Dunnoe wat to do or where to go oso and when to go man…I tink now hor..go clubbin is the best cos darn shuang aft a nite of “high-ing” esp since it’s the ‘stress’ seasons man……Wed Zouk Mambo nite + ladies nite!! MDm woNg. And of cos my best indulgence..devils…I missed TCC Iced Mocha Latte oso…I missed swimming..i miss cycling.. when when to do sia??

It’s the “IT” fair at suntec! I’m reali hopin to get a thumbdrive cum mp3 player…cd-roms,diskettes are no longer efficient n resourceful! Can get a good one at $100??

My elder cousin goin Japan =D Xian mu!! And km is goin germany for a sch exchange program in april oso. She paid ALOT for it. The amount of money was so HUGE dat I nearly dropped my teeths, my mouths, my nose, my eyes, my lenses, my hair. Okok..reali alot a lot. Sch exchange program why stil haf to fork out so much? She like it can le…most impt is the money paid is worth bah. Hope she will gain lots of experience, haf a eye-opener feeling, haf plenty of fun, or perhaps xian dao a angmoh guy? Since she haf the angmoh features. HeE…
Everyone in the group hor oso take aeroplane liao, esp huiwen sure take till she tink its erxin, hee…so left me, the only sua-ku one lah…..

NVM..to this type of thing I veri optimistic one bah..i believe in ‘feng shui lun liu zuan’..one day oso will be my turn =D NX TIME MY TURN!

Anyway..go look at this ger frenster. INTERESTING…hahaa…here’s wat my fren wrote:”i saw a funny girl in friendster tat wear a white color top as a mini skirt.. omg.. so funny.. and i think she no money go makeover, den take all those photos at home” and her link!

http://www.friendster.com/user.php?uid=10306973Dun spread around too much leh..i post this one or two day den delete liao..cos I humji, I dun wan her come thrash me upside down by advertising her….haha

chalet chalet chalet!! Hmm. Excited!! BTW, buddies. I called raven, daniel and my two gfs-rachel n fiona to go liao. And inform km oso. BUT HOR..bad timing sia. Km and raven havin exams!! But I told them mus TRY to come on actual of boon bday…den dunnoe if huiwen goin oso anot hor….and if she stay,ton dere…and my two gfs oso dunwan ton…den I tink I NOT TON-ING oso liaO…cos I tink I’ll b e only ger? See How… Raynor to bring his whisky or wateva u haf..i bring vodka. Bring poker cards n mahjong..cos my 2gers are gamblers….haa…and u all oso ‘dai-tee’ siao…. Rent car/ van ah?? U all can meh…still newbies leh..haa…stil got P plate..can meh…dunwan la..waste money oso..we’ll shop for the bbq foods on the Sunday before chalet k..and money…I pay ard another 20-30bucKs. And I wan cycling…I wan swimming….lalallaal! if I stayed overnite….take MC loh!

WAhh….ok..long enuff??

Time to go Zzzz!!

[wed 9/3/05 11.29pm]

ends at 3/09/2005 10:27:00 PM

Saturday, March 05, 2005Y

The last sentence I heard today was,
"If u dare, u jus walk away and never cum back again".

Does it sound like wat u alwaes seen in tv drama, or perhaps real life? When the kids wana run away, the wife/husband, whoever wans run away, and the pple will say this?

Haiz =(

Before story session, let me start off with something nicer! Okok..another 2 more hrs to go, and I will be awake for 24 hrs liao!! Since ytd morning leavin for sch! I’m reali sooo tired. My legs so suan, my eyes so heavy!!

I went devils happie yeah! Wif my sista and an a colleague!!! WE HAVE SO MUCH FUN LEH!!! Haha =D Meet 1130pm, drink, tok, catch up wif each other, discuss abt our Co and den liveband, den dancebar, den liveband agn and dancebar agn. HEe…veri happie and fun!!!

And I saw..Marcus! Alreadi 2mths since we last met. Was happie to see him too. And den he strangle me lah. But of cos, I still stay together wif my gals! All left at 230am liddat..veri li hai lorh. All working morning the next day! Den yah.. Marcus wanted to send me home..so we went to 7-11 buy drinks and we sit down and den…..
WE TALKED
WE TALKED AND BICKLED again

He asked me the same ques. Why alwaes dun wan pei him go out, eat? Why dunwan b together. First question, easy to xplain. But second ques?? I told him wat I reali cant stand abt him, wat I dunlike abt him. He asked me then, wat I want him to do, to be, so as to b together? I DUNNOE…seriously, I dunnoe..i kept quiet..or I jus sae some stuppidd things. I dunlike him to alwaes accuse me tt I show attitude, tt mian jiang me do things I dun wan to, to tok to me so fierce n crude words. Of cos, he gif his reasonings too..like he’s busy and he cant spend time wif me oso lorh, cos we both working, and yah..i dunnoe..

He asked me nicely if wana b together..i said “NO” in a not firm tone at all. I was veri hesitant. I absolutely haf no confidence at all, I dun feel he reali like me a lot, I tink we wont work out since we alwaes quarrel, I cant tahan him so much le.
So he asked me another ques, if NOW, which is jus now, outside 7-11, can pei him anot? Which means, I dun go home slp. But u noe anot…I reali so tired, so shagged, so smelly, morning work, haven haf a gd slp lorh….but he kept askin me to go, to go.
So he said..why I alwaes dun give in to him? He said he haf been askin me but I alwaes dun give in to him….said why, this time round, I oso dunwan to pei him, dunwan to gif in to him….i said my reasons….but he disagrees, I said I reali wan go home…I stand up to tok to him liao, said I reali wan go hm slp…den he hold me and ask me sit down tok, dun need stand up tok, den wan everyone know we quarrelling…
BUT..i stil wan go home…I stand up tell him I wan go home le. He den said this… “If u dare, u jus walk away and never cum back again”.

I paused for a moment..but in e end, I got into the cab. And I didn even turn my head ard to look at him. Mayb somehow, I wanted to be more ‘xiao sha’.
Now…guess wat..

I’m reali veri guilty for wat I’ve done. I’m in regrets. I’m sad. I jus kept saying that I tink he dun reali like me alot…but todae….i tink I mayb in e wrong…

I realize that, in every single thing, I jus wan him to know how I felt, and I dun bother abt how he felt. I jus totally ignore him. I jus tink and tink of all the nonsense he created for me. I didn reali care to noe his intention. I was selfish. And he was responsible to me. He was somehow accommodating to me, he will ‘ang-gu-gu’ abit to me when I m fedup..

I jus wan to go hm and haf a nice slp. I tink he’s ridiculous to keep asking me to pei him at this hr. I felt tat he dun care abt how tired I was, I felt he jus wan he,himself to win, to be happie if I wana pei him. But now, I tink I’m in e wrong……..

Actually I myself is the biggest problem! I jus wan him to noe my pt of views. Without botherin to hear much to him and pin-pointing him dat he’s demanding…

I was cruel to walk away jus liddat..i dunnoe how he felt..he once said he gave up. Today, he said for the second time le…

mayb i m findin excuse, im not commited.. i dun reali like him alotalot, im not so-ready to gif up my singlehood...wat do i want actually? i oso dunnoe..heart aching cos i dunwan him to heartache...........im in so much shame now...he meant wat he said, dun cum back agn....dun even dare to call him up to tok nicely to him..

He used to tell me tis before..feelings aren’t reali tt impt, cos in e r/s process, it wil slowly develop..most impt is he can takecare of u..
Many pple oso said this..Love someone who love you more than you love him!
I realize this NOW!

Its all my fault.
Marcus, Im reali sorrie this time….

I regretted so much now…why I alwaes so stuppiddd…..

what do i reali waN?

Gif him a msg telling him tt I m reali sorrie…
Tink he’s jus so pissed liao.

ends at 3/05/2005 04:48:00 AM

Friday, March 04, 2005Y

FRidaY!!!!! FInaLLy!!

decided to change back to tis blogskin =) like the paul frank blogskin lah..but tt one put pix not nice..and oso the side all empty empty one..so use tis better

But u all see lorh..so cute! so colourful!!

today wana go happie go high leHz. but dun reali wan part wif the money!! everytime hear those nice nice songs..hhOoooHoo! devils is waitin for me..so is my another sista..!!! MW is waitin to earn my money osoooo!!!

Went Sakura instead of PizzaHut ytd. Wif my another gp of siao char bor gers! my dear colleagues made at work..oh nopez, its EX-Colleagues! Was celebratin Fiona's bday =) Eat till veri veri bao there..sweet sour fish, chicken wif cashew nuts, tomyam soup, kangkong, wanton..and a bday cake for her oso!

Actuali other than siao char bor..we are oso another gp of zhi-lian gers. wAh! we took alot alot of pictures. decent, lame, drama, stuppiddd ones all also have. Now waiting for them to send to me! cant wait to post it Up..haha
yeah! jus now oso took photos!!! awaiting for them to send too~~~!!!

By the way..am i reali veri siaocharbor? or veri..hmm..lian?? no rite...no lorh. i not okay..haha...dunnoe why i got tis 'lian' tittle sia..the way i tok got alot of pattern lah issit..its NAtuRal! But actuali to alot of pple..eg..pple in sch who dun hang out together wif me alot...they portay me as someone quiet or wat-so-eva lah...sometimes i bother, i mind alot abt wat they tink abt me...but sometimes i dun..its a veri contradiciting thingy lah. aniwae...i feel the best when i'm wif my dearies in sch, liwen, adeline,fion oso lah hor. my another gp of siao-char-bor gers, my close frens, darren, when go clubbin happily..and the rest...cos at tis moment, cant tink of anyone else...
Being the true-self is reali happie lah..but sometimes im not....jus so natural~~

Some confessions..i cant deny tt sometimes i reali got "AP" lorh. sometimes its bcos, certain thingy irriate me, im feelin pekchek,depress,sad,frustrated over thingy..or i angry at u, i not happie wif u, u make me angry or watsoeva...THAt's why i liddat..best thing is dun provoke me further..u noe it de...when i m veri veri quiet and not smiling at all..aniwae..i didn, and im reali not anihow throwin tantrums or i vent anger on u~ cos when im angry, i vent anger on other things de..i dun need and i dun tink its rite to vent on pple!! aniwae..sorrie..

More to gO..

SEVEN HORRIBLE WEEKS...

THE CRMCC 2!!!

gOOdBye!!!!!!!!!!

okAy..photo takin sessions are alwaes fUn!

the whole CRMCC pple =)

All The GerS

The GuYs

LaMe enuFF?? hAhaha

thEy reaLi cannot decent take photOs la..

See? SexUal harraSSement

ends at 3/04/2005 12:00:00 PM

Tuesday, March 01, 2005Y

PixS tAken durinG Sun BBQ!!

Janelle and Me with the big TWIST!!!
the dirty tongs~ muahahaha

the bIg TWIST again!

intro to u all..they are my frens made durin TEP
first row from left: Wei Ren, ClaiRia, JAnelle, Me, KennEth
second row from left: Si ha0, Ivan, GlenN, RoySton, Vig, LeewEn

Look at that Wei ReN!!! WAH pENGGzz!
and tat clairia hiding there..!!
and janelle n me again..wif the tongs.

HAHAHA....

ends at 3/01/2005 10:43:00 AM