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Friday, December 31, 2004Y

Came to sch alone todae and will go home alone todae oso. Bcox, haf to go home get ready for work. hmm. lonely lonely.

was anticipating so happily n excitedly for this New Year. Even though, i reali didn haf any plans on hand yet. I noe if i reali wan go out, i shldn haf too much of a prob gettin frens out bah.

But todae morning, sitting in e train comfortably, wearing nice clothes, formal todae, listening to Perfect 10, which alwaes play nice songs which make me feel so happie n cheery putting me into the mood of a fun nite out...

But todae i didn haf the mood at all. Playing all the nice songs i reali luvvvv...BUt why i didn haf the mood?? its bcos...

they were reporting abt the Tsunami cases..the death toll was up to 250,000. Missing pple stil on the rise..i feel so so so affected abt it..i was so upset listening to the news report..the edge of my eyes jus bcom wet..i feel so much like weeping for them..

Life is so unfair. All they want was havin a good day out at the nice beaches. Goin out for a holiday wif their beloved family members and perhaps a christmas celebration and a usual gatherin on a sunday which usually is a family day~

But the earthquake n tidal waves jus happen..and took away so many innocent precious lives.

At tt point of moment, i noe i m reali reali veri fortuntate to be around. everyone jus haf to learn to cherish each other..do wat u can do to help them. Be it, monetary donations or food essentials or clothings essentials..or observe a min of silence for the victims..

Many New year countdown parties for this year will thus haf small changes..there won b animore Fireworks and some other activities mayb replaced.. We haf to be sensitive to this tragic incident. Dun complain tt u cant see the fireworks..dere wil stil be another chance..

humph. life's unfair. mayb the world is comin to an end soon....

hope i wil haf a nice new year! and of cos..hopefully a nice nite today, new yr eve. stil no plans..no-one date me..actuali i haf a bbq session..but..wif sec sch frens. i won b goin..cos as u all noe..im reali not in e bond wif the gers at all..im onli close wif the guys lorh....so i wont go..i dunwan go den sianz sianz there..

i wana catch movie~~

ends at 12/31/2004 10:11:00 AM

Thursday, December 30, 2004Y

rollercoaster!

One moment i was just so damn siao char bor again. Feelin so damn high playin Britney's songs loud loud loud!! talkin happily to fren in msn. thinkin abt wat happen todae in sch. Got pple pei me take train, go home take train saw my sec sch de shuai ge. Den best of all..someone sae i pretty. wahaha.

But now, so worried! He's in hospital. He injured his leg in camp.
Wat a bday gift for him.
his bday today. he lose his camp pass. he injured his leg.
But last nite he win 700bucks.

haiz =(

hope he's okay!

Tml most probably no more "DRINK DRINK DRINK HOR! BDAY BOY!! DRINK DRINK" den he cannot liao..his frens will say, "DEN U DRINK U DRINK, U DRINK FOR HIM!"

iMy fren went back to indonesia. I dunnoe where is she now..i haf no other means of contacting her..i email her but she haven reply me leh!

Tml mus go use fireworks[my fav thing] , chEers loud loud, knock glasses and bottles and countdown loudly to ward off all the evil stuffs of year 2004. Absolutely a bad year! My heart goes out to all e victims and affected families of Tusnami incident. Things will turn for the better.

May year 2005 be a better one. [sian. i wil turn 20]
im feelin bad. i didn do anithin. i wil do a monetary donation.

i love chinese new year. i reali do!
Ang pows, dun need to work yet havin money rollin in! Steamboat to eat[it wil make me fat wee!]. A big group of family eating together. Gathering!
Countdown at River Angpow(marina) "Chun Dao He Pan". Bah kwa to eat! Off days from sch n work!

My fav holidays =)

readin some pple blog again..haiz. all i can sae is, i hope i'm nt e one. hope everythin jus go well for us. when a married couple wana go thru divorce, they oso got chance to tok n go counsellin rite. so if there's smth ya wan say, discuss out. I feel tt u haf somehow misunderstood. Or perhaps i m sensitive? hmm..well, im somone who seriously cherish ya. mayb in another wrong way le.

oh ya! i forgot to complain this! Its updated lah~ im most probably the last one to noe tis again! This year is the LAST year Govt is issuing ERS!!!!!!! LAST YEAR LIAO LORH. I thot i got chance to song song easily take Govt de money!!! No more liao....those who haf..pls treat me. thank you hor. i can issue u my wishlist. haha

Okay~ dats all. im a good ger =) Nv go out aft sch this whole week. Sleep early oso! Goin off now..waiting for phonecall.....faster call me back!

ends at 12/30/2004 09:23:00 PM

Wednesday, December 29, 2004Y

[before i go sleep..10.26pm. Radio spinning: Where is the Love. favourite song..wee!!]

Received a sms [sianz,he kept msg-in me! fan!] The question was:
Given 3 choices now, what will i choose?
1- Go to heaven
2-Remain as wateva is now
3-Curse someone down to hell. but haf to go down wif them eventually.

Guess wat i chose?
okay, No2: Remain as wateva now =)

Feel contented, sastified with almost everything i haf. although, in mani areas, there is definitely room for lots of improvement.

Why shld i choose Heaven? Havin to leave everythin i haf and owe now?

Intially, at first glance, i wana choose No3:Curse someone down to hell but haf to go down eventutally..dunneed me to sae, i'm sure u all can make a good guess of who i'll curse down to hell rite. haha..i guess the hatred i haf for him is jus so so much. Tat nite i saw him at bugis, i reali wanted to stab him to death. No joke. i reali wan to do tat..or do some harm to him..but useless lah, he being an law enforcer..

Aniwae, the thing is..now i'm happier.

But i seems to step down from my siao-char-bor-ness liao!!!! Mayb too tired bah~

And yah! i noe how i got 'infected' wif the siao-char-bor-ness! Caused by my dearest frens all ard me!!

Some examples:
last fri, took train wif nelle n clairia. they ji-tao never pardon me at all..in the mrt lorh. tickled me non-stop..kept on tickling tickling. i cannot tahan de..den i haf to 'siam' here 'siam' there...shift here shift there..face jus cant tahan until it turned red..den the 'screechin' sound from me...but they stil duncare sia..so mani pple look but they stil enjoyin themselves by tickling me!!

today, veri damn high in bpos room. haha..was the 'target' of Zhi Qi and Vig!!! Vig suan me non-stop. I surf frenster, look at ger profile he wil say i actact lorh, actuali wan c guys de, but i act, den i see mark de profile he say i flirt, den i read mark testi, he say i jealous bcos got ger gif his nice testi. Den i drop raynor a bday testi, he say i scandal wif him oso..den i pekchek he kept li-siao-ing me mah..so i sae,'fuck off leh' he sae..'sorrie i no time, busy'.................................HAHAHA

den zhiqi and vig play n play. play until i bcom their target. they bamboo-pole fighting. bamboo opera show started. den use the big long bamboo pole to poke me, poke my shoulders, 'fish' up my bag and opera style running...den jus happily li-siao-ing me.......

wahahhaha. but nvm lah. laugh so much today. feel so happie n shuang!!!!! haf such a tiring day wif them!!

oh ya, my dad hp spoilt le. heh, wonder how they gonna survive wif tis. they alwaes say no money no money. Better dun try to borrow from me. wat goes ard comes ard. i lose my hp twice, they haf NEVER help me at all. Both my hp is i use my OWN hard-earn money to buy okay.

okay. fri comin soon. new year eve.
my best new yr eve, most memorable too was in 2002. At Pulau Ubin nite cycling wif the boys. So fun!

Marcus happie bday to u! [although u dunnoe my blog.haha]

ends at 12/29/2004 10:25:00 PM

Tuesday, December 28, 2004Y

i have sooo many things to say but then again, dunnoe where to start first..

okay, firstly, i reali cant wait for my block leave to come!!!! And of course, the HighLight of this week is goin out wif my buddies!!! haf been quite sometime we gathered together liao. But as usual, no full attendance cos Huiwen haf to wrk, she's excused. Oh well..i dunwan to be too detailed abt other things le.
And we are goin to Fish n Co! HAHaa...Shiokshiok.
Aniwae, can we go eat steamboat one day? Oh yah..do u guys remember? One year ago de today, Dec27th to Dec31st..we are enjoyin ourself at Genting!! At tis timw now, We shld b restin in the hotel or goin out walk walk bah..hahahah =D

lipsin lipsin lipsin ah. so touched =) by ur blog.Feel so much for us? As for me..im reali fine liao. U wont see me cryin over jerk like him or me foolish hurtin myself again. i fell down but i've stand up again. im a strong ger. thanks veri much to u too..cos u are alwaes there for me when i need some help! Cheers to u!

my frenster account,i've deleted mani pple from it. pple who i dunnnnnooe at all or dunnnnooee them well. i dunwan and dun intend and dun need to meet anione liao..and i oso found vincent fren, and haf thus added his fren in. tis fren i oso noe him lorh, like my kor..can talk de..both him n vincent look alike. den i told them tis mah..den he said they are real brothers..and almost believed it. haha.

The thing is, i dunwan and i dunwish him to feel that, im tryin to get close to his frens so tat i can get info all heard things abt him...its not reali 100% of the case at all lorh..no doubt, i wish to noe how he's doin. dun question me why too..im stil silly, im stil kpo-ing at his frenster..
U noe..there's nv such thing tat a fren,once a fren, will jus get lost from ur mind from you. he or she wil stil b remember by u, u wil stil care for them..its not jus vincent, tis goes to other of my frens too..seriously, yesh, i admit, i admit, i stil miss him..i do i do i reali do. but wat's e use? I've since make my stand to get him off my back and move on without him.

and now tt i m happier without havin to be so so silly waiting for him. be blessed tt now im so much better, why shld i foolish foolish be bothered abt him when he haf NEVER care abt me at all rite. Now tt i tink i alreadi found someone who cares for me and ofcos i do care for him too..of cos i divert all my concern to the one who deserves it. Havin to noe him...i realise i haf been such a stuppidd ger when i was still in e situation of 'hang' with him!

okay..everybody, im stil single. but reserved.haha..i got no bf. No one is my bf now. im no one de gf too!! mayb dats wat pple said de..honeymoon period. we are together quite often, goin out, talkin, fight argue, but stil, we jus noe each other. we arent together, cos gif each other time to noe each other better..perhaps~

31st. after sch haf to go work 4-10pm. den sat sun off! im a slacker.. so seldom work now. aiya..please please..i reali wanna go clubbin! i reali wan get myself at devils de liveband dancefloor! i wan go out and wear my new dress!!!
31st..Mayb he celebratin his bday there lorh...den will haf mani mani of his frens..den if he dun entertain/pei me[dats for sure,he wont] i wil b alone sia. i oso dunnoe his frens..where got possibilty go dance lehhhzz moreover its HIS frens lorh! ANd oso....he go dancebar,which i dun reali like..i belong to e LiveBand~~~~ and..
later his frens sure say,"DRINK DRINK DRINK HOR! BDAY BOY!! DRINK DRINK" den he cannot liao..his frens will say, "DEN U DRINK U DRINK, U DRINK FOR HIM!"

how how???! AHHHhhhh..playin britney's song now!! friday nite sat nite!!!
sunday dunneed work lorh!! Doesn tt give a good reason tt i shld go out on e nite?!

okay..somethin veri lame happen on sunday nite when i was abt to doze off! my mom wake me up.."cum here see see faster faster''
okay..two men fightin arguing lorh, over at the carpark downstairs. i tink fightin over carpark lots..den the taxi driver came up from his car den go to the opponent car, kept shouting him to COME OUT COME OUT. den he 'yingying' force open the car door..den push push shout yell at the opponent,which seems to b a quite elderly man bah. Den my mom kept tellin me to call PoLice call Police. and i kept sayin, watch lah, call police veri mafan. later ask me tis ask me tat. HAHa...okay..tis goes to prove im not a spontaneous person! i dun help in such thing cos i scared mafan!

okay..den in the end..e fight seems quite jialat..so i bo-pian, i call 999. 1135pm..5mins le..stil fightin..police haven cum..den awhile later..the fight STOP LIAO! They both go off...and the GOOD POLICE haven come yet! i was like...'wah lau eh...jialat liao..later sure call me as k wat happen.....sianz!!!!" and true enuff....1145pm. TWO POLICE CARS, SEVEN or EIGHT OFFICERS...den my hse phone "Ring Ring Ringggzzz...." no 9813.........

hello can i speak to ms irene
speakin....
hi,im a police officer from bukit panjang npc..jus now u make a report abt a fight rite..where is e place?
can u see me here from ur hse? im at the correct place rite? den i go to the kitchen there and see..yah..saw a man holdin a phone talkin and kept turnin his head up down left right hahah.
den i say e fight haf resolved alreadi..den i haf to tell him wat happen..
aiyoyoyo..its so much of a trouble!!!!

hahaA...wat a lame thing! police police. cant deny but reali haf a *thing* for them!

okay...no more liao. same old thing tt i say!! Devils oh devils..vodka ribena.hahA

[losemybreath=10.25am]

ends at 12/28/2004 10:18:00 AM

Sunday, December 26, 2004Y

i dunnoe wat else to say le. mayb jus shut up and take it lightly

nvm le. jolly well dun get back to me at all bah. no more calls and no more sms. and no more replies from u.

i everytime say i won go find u liao. in e end, got any plans up, i still look for u

but haf i ever get u out successfully?

nope. not at all. cant even reach u to ask if ya free

ur bday is a day where it was reali plan shui shui for ya

but wat abt ours?

oh well. dunnoe le

Anyway!! Raynor birthday is comin real soon! He's 21 very soon!! WeEe =D
so fast! And we are going for Fish N Co one day advance for his bday celebration!!

I cant wait for my block leave to come!! Shall work a few more days and oso a Ktv session wif my dearies! HoorAy! I last sing ktv on Nov2th, Seven hours session. Hahhaa!

And tis week, New year eve =) Any one wan go.....clubbin........i seriously wanna go lorh. But nvm, cos no one is keen de. sad. especially gers.

Nvm, i go sleep now

ends at 12/26/2004 11:10:00 PM

why does e radio haf to play this song, Glory Of Love, especially when im in a good mood!!
WAH lau ehh -_-" But cant deny lah, its a meaningful song..."im a man, who wil fight for ur love..i wil b the hero u wil b dreamin of.." mayb i shld learn to luv tis son?

OKAY...did u all enjoy your Christmas? hope so yah! If didn, nvm lah. take ur revenge by havin more fun the very next time u go out! jus like me mah, sick cant eat tis cant eat tat, recover liao. wil eat for revenge!!! Actuali im stil coughin now.

i veri veri guai lorh..i NEVER go out on 24th and 25th!So proud of it..haha..even my mom find it strange tt i headed home instead of roaming around! i didn go devils! i two wks nv go liao! ....hao xiang go leh...

24th: aft sch at 1pm.went out a short while den go work. aft work oso too tired to go out liao. he jio me go ktv along wif his frens, but aiya, feelin tired cos wake up soo earli den durin work oso busy. den go everywhere oso packed. sales was good. feel happie and glad workin actuali =D FIRST TiME. haha..i tink cos i too long nv work liao.

25th: work oso. alot of plans change.
ACTUALLY is: dinner at bt timah wif colleagues aft work. den go devils happie happie
IN THE END: no dinner at bt timah, instead, we ordered KFC and PiZZa delivery. eat inside shop. ANd no more devils too, cos he tired.

KFC..haa..shit shit. cough cant eat chicken. but..i bo-hiew!!! this is alreadi my second KFC meal for tis week. and 24th, i wobbled up a chicken chop! Aniwae..today's dinner at shop wif colleagues was fun fun fun. didn expect it lorh. we haf christmas exchange pressies too!! i got a nice big bathe towel =)

one of my colleague,didn see her for sometime liao, told me..i..slim...down le..
haiz. mayb cos i not in so-gd-health bah

something small happen today.
tis guy, is noe him for quite long le. since i 16 work at angie till now. he work at sembawang music,nx nx door nia. dunnoe each other names but got talk talk de lorh. today he walked past my shop, den i saw him holdin the 4d paper, so i said:
i: go buy 4d ah?
r:yah lorh,but veri long queue.later den buy liao
den we talked abt our sales, said y i so long nv work here, den tok abt other things...and then..
r:ur hp no wat? i buy ur no
i:last 4 no is 0864
r:infront de leh?
i:u want my no jiu say lorh..den 'kk'
r:yah lorh, jiu shi yao ur no lor.

haha..sorrie..i tink i oso very bu-yao-lian rite..to say liddat..hahA..but nvm la..i oso dun mind to gif him cos since noe each other so long liao bah..den he even lame..later got sms sms mah,den he say, 'ur no is my best xmas gift'...................wah pengz

Clairia!!
We are superstar liao! cos....damn paiseh now!!
cos..my fren jerral call me jus now, he said, channel U dunnoe wat program hor...we got snapped by camera...e program tok abt wat sporeans overwhelmin response abt sales....aiya..i dunnoe wat sia...but so ma-lu now!!!!!!! shit....mango sales!! i not a mango-criminal!! i onli buy one top nia!!!

by e way, sorrie! i busy at work den aft work doin finish everything i reali seh le..so didn respond to any sms or calls..sorrie..

okay! nx week new year eve liao!!
today sunday im off!!

take care pple!

ends at 12/26/2004 01:06:00 AM

Friday, December 24, 2004Y

additional design. thanks to Paint. HAHA.

looks so christmas!! yeahh..hee..my bo-liao-ness, so make it look nicer =)
dunnoe u all can notice anot lorh, bUt...we..are standing according to our height!!

we like little children lorh..takin pix wif soft toys. but but. this pix is nice!!!

tis board goes to proof tat we reali got do work lorh!

Yiting and Joann

Melissa, me and Joann

today is xmas eve!!

Those goin out..HAVE FUN YA!!!!!!! christmas is alwaes such a beautiful holiday!!
Nice christmas trees at orchard, gift-exchanges, goodies like candy, chocolates, cakes and cookies!!

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL =D

RAVEN: thankew veri much for ur christmas pressie =) so touched!! so happie!! so thoughtful of u to get me a xmas gift!!
but sorrie, promise to meet u up soon ok? along wif the mia ms tew km. hao ma? cfe session,eating session or anithing!

THE MANGO SALES YESTERDAY!

was so so so so so excited yesterday!!! went wif another mango siao, Clairia!
Where we went? 1-Isetan Scotts 2-Shaw 3-Isetan Wisma 4-Taka 5-Centerpoint.
Five outlets in 4hrs+!! hahA..siao char bor rite!

raven,luckliy u didn go wif me. or i tink u will faint there. i see guys accompanying gfs. some guys ah, their hands bcom a mobile hanger liao, carryin tons of clothes for gf, some waited outside gong gong de, some stand by e side readin magazines read newspaper, see hp den some, keep peepin heads into the boutique hopin the gers faster get out rite.

pathetic de guys. haha!!
sorrie, i cant find ani reasons lorh. wat is so big deal abt mango sales. haA...mango mango. i tink every gers jus cant resist it!!

security was doubled oso. security guards standin outside. crowd control. At entrance, go in certain outlets mus queue up de. or they wil use a hard-string-thing to tie up ur shoppin bags, and big handbags haf to b sealed up.
All this thing...gives me the feelin like..i majiam goin clubbin!!! got bouncer outside, to see ur attire, big bags they check, see ur age and etc. wah, imagine they gif u a chop on ur hand...haa..reali same as go clubs liao lorh!!

aniwae, its reali reali crazy! they open at 8am!!!!!
and i saw two frens jus within 1min apart. so scary =x

but nvm, most important is..i bought ONE new top. One which i reali like tt time.
oly $19 instead of org price of $39!!!
SHUANG!!

okay,enuff abt MNG =D haha

in addition, i bought a pair of new shoes!

and..i tink my voice is fadin away agn...too much cookies yesterday le!

now in sch, off from sch at 1pm. and goin out awhile before i go work at four pm!

and shit..i haven buy anithin for him yet. how!!!! i reali no idea wat to buy....was thinkin of buyin.....
this.....ring..........

okay, gotta go!!

ends at 12/24/2004 09:44:00 AM

Thursday, December 23, 2004Y

[4.40pm]

actuali the photos look all abt the same. but haha. i stil wan post =)

[11.22am]
irriating!! stop singing and hum-ing!!

for some particular reasons, i reali reali reali reali reali detest detest detest detest hate hate hate TEP. I HATE IT!!

nx week, my team three pple go block leave le, left onli huihui n me. will b busy doing those redunant things.
u noe, we do it le. yet we haf to redo and redo and redo and fuckin redo it lorh. so damn boliao the supervisor.

reali dislike those bo-sim pple! dunwana elaborate much. but these pple..pls lorh. wake up ur mind pls ok. pple appreciate u yet u alwaes wan to do things another way round? wat does tt mean? if u jus dunwanhangouttogether,jus tell lorh.dunneedfindlameexcuses OR jus simplychosetomia!

later goin MANGO SALES =)

ends at 12/23/2004 11:18:00 AM

Wednesday, December 22, 2004Y

[928pm]
im goin to slp very soon. reali tired..i tired, very tired..feel so much like a livin corpse..why i'm i so tired? no strength no energy..very headache..

"Glory of love" on the radio now. sux.
i was surfin his frenster and new pix. so so handsome..miss him a little bit.[aniwae,he block everythin, onli his first degree frens can c his account, and i couldnt see anithin much at all] Why am i stil affected or wateva it is. After everythin, [all the silly things]Starin at the pix, his status, searchin for 'evon' under the 'search'..........all i feel was.rejected and moody,perhaps sad?

I miss another someone. didn get to meet him 2day..hUmm..i miss u!!!! i reali do!

[noon]
still coughing after almost two weeks plus le!! coughin veri terribly at nite..couldn sleep well also -_-
no wonder these few days, reali tired and worn out in school..haf been busy goin out doin things,dinner..so unable to sleep earli. when tired..oso dun feel like talkin much..

best is to sleep at 10pm plus..nx day reali feel fresh and feelin good..i reali cannot cannot cannot tahan endure le..its so xinku to wake up soo earli in the morning. everyday wake up at 6.15am..shit lorh, cannot make it le..

so long sch hrs..830am to 6pm. Usually by the end of the day, im reali tired and seh liao..sometimes even lazy to go out..however, stil bite hard on my lips and go out....haha..haiz....and oso for some other particular reasons, i hate TEP. i hate it!

I thot no one noe abt it..HOHOHO. so everyone does read newspaper =)
SIA PROMOTION: $98 two way trip tix to Taiwan for the mth of Jan!
I was sooooooo excited abt it. It actuali happens on my block leave!!
BUt so wat? cos even if i go, i oso go there see see nia lorh!!

ANd worse of all..
LIPSIN IS GOING!! HE BOOK TICKETS LIAO =x
So jealous. haha
rem to do your homework before goin ok.
AND thankew thankew. BUy thigns back for me ok? haha

And MANGO is having Sales!!
Again, i m so excited abt it!
But i dunnoe leh, whether i shld buy anything
cos i actuali exceed my spending limit le
i even use my savings liao

and i reali wana go on holidays to Taiwan or Hongkong by June!!
he said we shall go together on June nx yr =)
and he alwaes tell me to SAVE SAVE SAVE $$$

But who noe's wat will happen 6mths later?
shall see how le bah

but seriously, hope tis reali will cum true
of cos not jus referrin to the holiday trip lorh
wishing for the best in everything =)

today wed le. three more days to christmas.

im workin on the eve and xmas. both days till 10pm.
24th Eve: aft work shld b goin home. dun reali reali feel liek goin out..
25th Xmas:aft work, dinner wif colleagues. den devils aft tat. wOo Hoo!

Look at this thing. KAOZ! SO disgusting man!

ends at 12/22/2004 04:47:00 PM

Monday, December 20, 2004Y

the iBid team of NYP

my team! Operations team

membership team

promotion team

today is 20th monday le. time now is 1134am. waiting for lunch.
11more days and it gonna be year 2005 le. and im turnin older and older. hate it =x

this year 2004 haf been a fruitful and good year for me =)
:i experience a new job. workin at rav.
:i noe mani mani new frens this year too.
:mark kenneth jerral zhiwei.jinsen.marcus.alvin.new classmates.new colleagues.all my bpos frens.frens i make at work.
:i club more and more le. devils!!and other places
:i got my membercard. hooray
:i haf a icecream cake for bday
:my hair grew longer
:i went out alot. eating and eating,geylang etc..
:i haf lots of funs goin out wif frens
:i'm successfully in Year 2 le!
:my cousin,lipsin,raynor all got their drivin license
:fren got car. fren got bike.
:huiwen fufil her dreams liao
:i settle the redunant things le

but bad things do happen too..
:truth was out and i noe tt he was a jerk. a real jerk. who cause me soo much hurt for the past one year plus.
:and i haf thrown everything far far away from me le.
:Out you go bastard!
:i oso save lesser and lesser cos my parents are my creditiors and i'm their debtors.
:the goals i set is not possible animore- savin up for HK trip by next june. i wont b able to save tt much at all!

today wear nicer to sch cos suppose to haf presentation. In e end it was postpone bcos 2members on MC. Over at BPOS here, every single day, from week 1 till now week 4, SURELY got at least one person on MC!! Wah penggz..now my feet pain. i wear the pointed shoes, the one i reali reali like it de...ouch..cheap shoes, so damn pain now. my toenails wil jus crack anitime!

my sec sch gers oso went club at devils de..sianz. i hope i wont 'du tio' them whenever i go there..simply sianz -_- if i see them dere..

wat i wan[haha..impossible]

queen size bed.camera phone.go hk or taiwan!! of cos i wan someone who reali can treat me gd..

ends at 12/20/2004 11:38:00 AM

Sunday, December 19, 2004Y

i reali love my ahma alot =)
sometimes i reali feel guilty. i alwaes dun make time to go visit her. cos i work work go out go out and sch sch.
so yesterday and today noon i went down. and she cooked so many things =)
eat until i veri veri super bao!!

stayed there for abt three four hrs, eat and watched the repeated Star Awards. and i left at late 6plus.

went to NorthPoint. dunneed me mention, shld noe who i meet rite?

went to eat again! eat and eat!! He bought those things he need..food court for dinner. cold storage for his one week food and groceries in camp. pasar malam for a battery operated radio. mcdonalds for my ice lemon tea and his mcflurry. arcade for his game. and other shops to loam ard. and bye le, at 9pm+. he go back to his camp lorh.

and oso..on sat he jio n ask me if wan go do makeover photoshoot anot lorh. ~pengz~

tml monday le!! so sianz. my supervisor is...back....aft his 2wks leave.
no more slack or long lunch hrs!! Presentation tml oso. i dunlike presentations!

but nvm! i got smth to look forward tml =)

i'm goin out wif my 2 dear cousins!! dunnoe how long nv go out together wif them. and oso..i'm goin to buy Shu Uemura foundation. though it wil cost me a big bomb lah.

ohh ya, i didn mention abt my old fren contact me back ya? Davin! he msg me on fri noon! so glad..dun wana lose a fren..i hope he's reali okay le..and i hope he gets wat i mean...i treasure him so much as a fren!

and i'm oso shoppin for a xmas gift cum his bday present.
another headache.... money is reali nt a prob to him at all lorh, all he wan de things he no prob gettin it..wah sianz..

buy him a dur cake, a bday card wif words in?

HOW LAH!!!!!!!!!! i clumsly hand de lorh..handmake things i cant make it..stichting,jigsaw-puzzling, sewing, drawing all i cannot make it!

HOW!!!!!!

ok..goin to slp le.
so tired easily =/

ends at 12/19/2004 11:19:00 PM

The weekends =p
[sun 19th 1.15m]

FRIDAY
let me try to recall wat happen on friday!
was a busy day at school and was tired oso. mayb bcos lunch time went out wif my bpos mates to eat at J8 again! J8 is crowded alwaes and yah..mani sales,offers goin on! den someone lose a $1k diamond pendant in sch. but she don reali feel the pinch yah? haiz, rich pple whp dun need worrie abt money de lah.

Aft school, along wif Nelle n Clairia, as planned we went to eat dim sum at Rui Chun Dian Xin! We try to act clever lorh..haa..took train to Lavender den try to walk walk to find the place. In the end we oso took a cab. HAHa. Stanley didn join us =x Nv Nv gonna b full attendance.

Along the way to dind Rui Chun Dian Xin...u see lorh, we were at Lavender MRT, remind me of..last year, ONE YR AGO LIAO! tat my buddies and me..actually book our genting trip coach and tickets there =) So so happie tt time!!!!

And oso along the way to there, walked past Jln Besar S-11. suddenly 'xiang dao' him. went there to eat wif all together wif his frens aft a nite of clubbin. eat the minced pork noodle den he ate the meatballs from my bowl bcos i dun eat. tt time go eat together veri happie.

shoppin at far east..i saw Cylin too! She's workin at fareastplaza, shop sellin clothes. both of us got talk lorh..haha...

at fri nite, actuali plan to meet for cfe wif marcus..but..haf a fight. he say i chu pattern attitude lorh..but i actuali reali didn at all. aft awhile..i explain to him nicely den okay liao lorh..we okay alreadi, but didn meet up on the nite too..cos he say nx day i work early..

on my way home..we quarrelled again! tok abt us..shoutin and yelling..den he veri fierce lorh..makin me even pissed wif the way he tok..but aniwae, aft the fightin, there's results la...so okay again..but the fight reali veri horrible..my mom oso thot i siao liao..

SATURDAY
work till 130pm den of cos i went out!
meet marcus lorh..we went to temple to pray
went to eat... YU PIAN MIFEN!
went to Parco to shop shop
went to SimLim to shop..cos he wan buy laptop, and aim one liao.
and went to Village to shop oso..
den parted ways at late 5plus cos he go his fren hse eat steamboat n i went hm.
yah..he bought a dress for me. Veri nice dress!! black..cute..its a tube dress..wah lau eh..reali veri nice lorh!! actuali i didn intend to try it..den he say go try leh..mayb veri nice on u..den go try..den veri suitable and pretty..hahaz...
reali like it alot! dunnoe when can wear =)

den i went out to eat wif my mom. very seh lorh. everything i pay =x
go BPP to eat den shop den went to pasar malam oso..
at nite den go ah ma hse..until late 11pm den dats all!

Sunday
later go ah ma hse eat again

okay..goin off =)

takecare pple!

ends at 12/19/2004 01:12:00 PM

Thursday, December 16, 2004Y

today is THURSDAY!! FiNaLLy fiNally!!

Haf an early lunch today and after eating, went down to Bishan J8 =)
SHop ard there awhile and feel so hapi shoppin and hanging up wif them again.
Bought a Baleno top too. Sellin cheap and of cos its nice, so i couldn resist buyin it.
Gonna wear it when i go out!

Miss my buddies too. I wonder..wondering..when will be the time where all SEVEN of us can ALL go out together? Me,Kaimei,Huiwen,Raynor,Lipsin,Jack and Boon. (haha,i didn count one extra person in rite?)
hope Fish N Co is reserved for all SEVEN of us. Perhaps a belated X-mas gathering?

My best pal, TIngYi came back from his Taiwan training liaO! he bought a belated bday gift for me too. So long never meet him up le, shall meet him up real soon. Alwaes can talk alot alot abt mani things =) 'XianMu' him soo much, went to Candana last yr for hols and tis year taiwan,although its trainin lah. haha. Well, he's a very good guy. a veri gd fren of mine. Now servin NS at..dunnoe-wat-camp and is Specialist course.

Today on way to sch, saw Cousin's bf and Boon. Aiyoo, i tink bcos mornin la, all stil sehseh,haven sober yet. Den i was the one doin the lame-ing,talkin and complaining. haha.

And Tml after school! 530pm end le! Goin to eat 'dim sum' wif Clairia,Nelle and Stanley. Our group is gettin smaller n smaller..no full attendance. We are goin to 'Rui Chun Tian Xin'!! OkaY...i say first lorh okay..dun expect too much le..cos its not those VERY NICE de 'dim sum' -.-" Dun beat me after that leh ok. When i 'huat' liao, i treat u all eat CrystalJade or DinDaiFung!!

So let me 'huat' ahh!

next week is christmas le.
christmas christmas christmas!!

today oso talkin to nelle..abt..Shawn..[nelle, my shawn, not ur shawn. heheE]
she asked n told me lorh,y nv tink of meetin up..mayb it reali will work out..
well..my heart says,"meet up' but my mind say,"dun meet"

shawn n me are gettin closer recently too..wif constant text msg abt 'wen hao' each other and etc, gettin closer together is also bcos..i tink cos now he workin le, not like last time still in NS, then maybe its bcos, me n him reali gum and we appreciate each other?

Five years le lorh. i was 14, he was 18. now me 19 he 23.
Past few yrs, not in superduper close contact..mayb once every few mths? but then stil veri gum and close..

everythin is just too fairy tale

all the sms he sent me, i oso kept it =)

ends at 12/16/2004 05:18:00 PM

Wednesday, December 15, 2004Y

[updated as at 948pm]

I've got my pay le!! So tat means i'm officially away and forever leaving RAV =) HOoRay!!
actuali abit sadsad oso. Cos work there got some bit of fun too. i reali hope i get to see those frens i made there agn. Some are reali nice pple. Aniwae, as wat mani pple, shawn,darren and mani more told me, GERS SHOULDN WORK NITE JOB. YEshhh i noe..but pay good. wat to do?

today was talkin to some frens abt jobs. MLM. Buddies they all shld noe.

Im considered lucky bcos i wasn reali being targeted and being psycho by pple to join or buy their products. unlike some of my frens who was reali being psycho hell much by those pple. I onli went down once and was there for the talk. i went there with the intention to see my gd fren de crush, but god knows? it wasnt as simple as that. worse of all, i bought along four other frens. and we were ushered to the seats to listen to their talk. PISSED.

Not goin to talk much abt tis job thingy stuffs. Or else gonna offend mani pple. Pple who know me shld noe how i feel abt tis.

Sometimes pple are contradicting lorh. Strange.
he 'pi' me go c doc,ask me dun eat tis dun eat tat,remind me take medicine,drink more water and slp earli,go hm rest,dun go out till too late.
Then jus now, he ask me go down drink! Bcos the bottle mayb expired today.WAH LAU Ehh.....

[4.28pm]

Dear janelle is now at my stopover, she is typing her report. And i am obviously, sitting beside her. But here i am, havin nothin to do again. Will be slacking most of the times for the next few days. All bcos, i have a supervisor who came for the first FIVE days then on leave for the next TWO WEEKS. HAHA. GOOD!!

Janelle Janelle, keep asking me to download MapleStory to play!! TEMPTING ME. If i not lazy, then i will do DL horz ok? HaHA =D AND now she playin songs online lorh. And all the ktv k-songs. HAIz!! I got no voice to sing.

Jus now go sports hall play games. I WAS VERY UNSPORTY LORH. Firstly, bcos i reali coughin and dun wan to play-hard. Secondly, not in the mood to play and wear wrong attire.

Missed seconday school alot. alot. alot.alot.
Used to be such a active ger in sch. St John, Netball, Captain's ball, Camps.
I'm GUILTY:Bcos i reali dun haf a healthy lifestyle =x

PE lessons, alwaes play netball. play till we sweat like waterfall. chiong watercooler, wear pe tshirt n shorts all day. hang clothes to dry. SO FUN! Last time netball trainin, even if it rains, we still go ahead. and meetin 9am twice a week for training.

St John, the footdrill under the hot sorching sun. made me tanned. the camps in and outside sch. The monthly PT lessons me n my partner conducted. The recreation games, "Husband&Wife", "Dog&Bone", singing songs and fighting verbally using songs with NPCC or Girlguides.

THAT WAS SO SO FUN!!!!

Swimming, Cycling, Badminton, Joggin is wat i enjoy doing.

WELL...its all the past leh!!

Yesterday i realised that for the past few days, i was reali happie,
at least not feelin sian or watsoever lorh. I realised tat bcos, yesterday evening, i was reali demoralised and fed-up.

Wat else but work again?
UNFAIR, is wat i can say. Im too lazy to elaborate le.
Feel like qutting a job which i haf been workin there for so long liao.

I thought i was capable n good enuff to handle two jobs. TALK LOUD nia rite.
I onli manage to juggle between ANgie and RAV for just three weeks.

u all dun see me tok until very XL when i tok abt RAV lor. Abt callin all gers down on Thur nite and complain them to MOM, if they dun gif me pay. Actually, deep down, i reali worried they eat up my pay. Today, im going down. Better dun play me out.

i gonna eat fish n co. im dying for it now.

sick reali veri xinku lorh...clairia stopped me from eatin sour sweets and gif me a stern look when i drink ribena. HAO XIN KU AHH!! Everyone is helpin me now-stop me from eating. hehaheha -.-" i thot onli Mr M ctrl me nia.

okay. goin off le.

ends at 12/15/2004 04:29:00 PM

Tuesday, December 14, 2004Y

She's beautiful!! Nice legs =)

The long awaited gift i shall get for myself!

And the heels i m dying to get!!

Eye lashes i am dying for.. so so beautiful!

Another MNG top which i like. but prefer the short sleeve de.

ends at 12/14/2004 01:33:00 PM

Monday, December 13, 2004Y

dear ladies and gentlemen, fellow classmates, passerbys, spies and whoever...
every thursday nite, go down to RAV for good bargains!

FOR GUYS: Dun wori, there is stil happy hours for u too. No cover charge and happie hrs till 10pm. U get to see gers too. Promote Ladies Nite to your dear gf, ladies and ani women u know.

FOR LADIES: ITS LADIES NITE!! And it means u get to enjoy free flow of drinks all nite long from 8pm to 2am. Drink all u can! Vodka, Gin, Bourbon, Tequilia, Rum, Whisky, Brandy.

Drink as much as you can. Ladies alwaes get priviledges. Drink and drink and drink!! Drink until sehseh and vomit there oso never mind. Cos managers there will clear the mess for u de!!

I HATE RAV! SO HELP ME TO TAKE REVENGE FOR!!!
DUN NEED WORRY LORH. DRINK ALL U CAN!!
ASK ALL THE GERS DOWN!!
DRINK TILL THEY BANKRUPT! TILL THEY SHUT THEIR DOORS AND SAY "BYEBYE"

BETTER GIVE ME MY PAY!!!! U FREAKIN RAV. SUCKS!

hate rav. hate them. kept delayin my pay. one whole week le lorh. better dun li-li-siao-siao wif me. i go MOM complain to u den u noe. i happie happie go shoot u i oso shuang lorh, even if i dun get my pay from U! i complain u until u buey tahan,make u shamless! i ask all the gers to go down on thursday nite leh!

haha. so shuang complaining here =) hhAha. ok, was angry for a FEW MINS nia. Yeah! i learn le. i reali learn le. Dun alwaes so hot tempered. learn le learn le...tryin my best to change to a better someone...

oh ok. time to sleep. i mus slp earli! since i got nth to do now oso. nobody to tok to, aniwae my voice sux, cant tok much oso! feelin drowsy too..

TAta..

ends at 12/13/2004 10:10:00 PM

HELLO EVERYBODY!

all these are the followin items on sales. its cheaper than retail price. come along with a nice tin which i dun tink u wil b able to get it outside. i will collect in my sch on behalf of u all and able to pass to you all by 23dec. i m announcing this on my blog here..not bcos it's for my own beneficial lorh. its bcos i tink its reali a bargain. famous amos cookies! mani pple like it rite? and moreover its cheaper. pls help me promote by word. can buy a small small one for urself to pamper urself or give it to someone as a xmas gift =) all sales mus b make before 15dec this wed by 12pm. thankyouverymuch. support me yeah!

traditional tin

Assorted Flavours (Chocolate chip with Pecan Nut, No Nut Chocolate Chip, Oatmeal Raisins, Butterscotch Chip with Pecan Nut)
430gm
Price: $ 19.76

square toy tin

available:
Chocolate Chip with Pecan Nut
No Nut Chocolate Chip
Oatmeal raisins
Butterscotch chip with Pecan Nut
230gm
Price: $13.60
[boon,tis is wat u buy de]

cat in bed

available:
Chocolate Chip with Pecan Nut
No Nut Chocolate chip
170gm
Price: $11.70

cookie shop tin

available:
Chocolate Chip with Pecan Nut
No Nut Chocolate Chip
Oatmeal Raisins
Butterscotch Chip with Pecan Nut
210gm
Price: $11.90
[raven,tis is wat u buy de]

lastly, if u all wan bo but angiethechoice log cakes, i can help u all buy den get a 10% discount ok? aniwae, i dun benefit from it lorh. jus tt their cakes are reali nice. choc log cake. $38.85

well, my voice really sucks like hell now. but its better le. at least i can tok one whole sentence. Unlike on sat and sun where i simply cant tok at all.

so when i recover..hAahahA. i will take my revenge! i will go eat this eat that eat this and eat that. the tv commercial keep advertising on KFC!! The cookies i sellin is makin me so itchy! Mcdonald's grilled chicken turnover is making me drool.

my perfume is reali running out le!! now go out oso dun put it on animore..but i dunwan buy first. cos need to get someone's bday pressie first,more important lorh. but what shld i get? getting a gift for someone is reali headache =x headache. somemore it get worse when all he/she haf no problem getting anything he/she wants de. they haf the money! thinkin of gettin a nice nice shirt. but where? topshop haf REALLY REALLY nice shirt. but its so costly and it's simply not worth at all.

yesterday star awards. arhh. was hopin to see my idol Vincent Ng so sooo much. But he wasn present. sianz!! dun like fannwong!!

Seed of Chucky will be out on Jan first week. i saw the preview le. I'M NOT GOIN TO MISS THIS MOVIE.

SUCKS...some pple jus sucks..so damn noisy and create a mess..and they dun clear their shit...stupiddd ppleee....

[410pm another slacking day]

yeshh..another nothing much to do day again. monday..its a bad and lonesome monday. im so hungry now yet i haf so mani things which i cant eat! Do you know what's the most horrible thing? My fren went to amk jus now, and she bought the FAMOUS and VERY NICE curry puffs and tabao back. I can onli SMELL it. I cant eat it!!

Dat's one hell of a suffering...the nice fragrance aroma is soo tempting! i noe i can jus ignore my sickness and eat right? But cannnottt..i mus takecare of myself and b conscious and responsible for my own body n health. I m getting better now. can tok more le. Sat n Sun i reali super jialat lorh, simply cant tok at all.

Christmas Christmas. Nice festival =)

But too bad, i dun reali celebrate it also. If free den hang out wif frens lorh. Last year xmas eve, i rem i was workin at town and went home aft work. the journey was freaking longg, almost one and a half hour. the whole bus was so cramped and i was then carryin a log cake home! Well, last year, i got TWO FREE log cake. hHAa..hardworking at work mah. I oso rem Vinc msg me ask me go devils, but i didn go.

Sec3 2001 bah, christmas eve, i went town to watch movie wif my then-ex-bf, the 3mth younger. at Lido and we watched the chinese movie by LeeHom,Aaron Kwok and LinXinru. Aft movie wana walked to Cine to find frens. ANd haha..the pathway from Lido,Wisma to Cine was DAMN PACKED. I even got seperated from him even though we were holding hands. hahA..it was so scaring lah, to get lost and seperated!!

Sec 3 and Sec 4, 2000 and 2001 christmas was oso spent at KAP with my then veri veri close sisters..mary kaimei huiwen weifang cylin. We will stay till late hours over there and jus eat and talk and play ard. soo happie. and for sure, we will go cold storage buy a whole chicken to share among us.(although its not turkey) We oso xchange pressies too. Last time reali veri happie happie..

sorrie..haha..gonna b a veri long entry today..dun feel like readin it den close it lorh hor..thankss =x

wat shld i tok abt now?

i have 7exs b4. issit alot? yeshh..its alot. sadly all didn work at all. failure!!

1: shen kaiwen 1998 sec 1

veri cute boi. bcos his hse no phone, he alwaes go void deck 2call me.den i tink we compatabile oso,cos he oso not veri tall de. haha.

2: lim wencheng 2001 sec 3

noe him when in sec1 le..but didn agree to be wif him at sec1 cos jus dun feel like it. wait till 2001,sec 3 den bloom. he veri gd and caring to me lorh,veri attentive. he bad boi,go sell vcd hit police den probation den liddat lorh.

3: Koh Ting Yi 2001 Sec 3

he's now my veri gd fren! tall tall tanned tanned handsome clever hot n quicktempered.

4: Terence 2001 Sec 3

ahbeng-wana-be. Norh,the 1986de. smoker,pierce earrings.. his mom dislike me thinkin i teach his son bad. he treat me good too..but i don treat him good even let him down..being unfaithful.

5.Gan Hongyi 2002 Sec4

the guy who disrupted life between the gers in my sch and me and terence and everyone near me. he is nicholas tse look alike andylau voice. too bad. tis guy turn my life upside down.

6: LYON SNG!!! Sec 4 y 2002

dun need intro rite? i luvv this guy alot alot =) being together with him is just like leavin in heaven. nth to worry at all. im so hapie honoured proud to be his ger.

the longest le, almost a yr.

7: Lin Jin Sen 2004

he's a bad guy. devilsbar freak. the oldest i ever haf. 1980.bad guy!!

rubbish of wat scared of commitment and shitty nonsense

ohh ok...SOMEONE told me this recently: Telling the the party this excuse,"No Feelings" thus dun wanna getting together is not good de. Not a veri valid reason etc lah. BCOS feelings can be slowly slowly slowly developed....most impt is...he/she treat you reali good....

ends at 12/13/2004 10:32:00 AM