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Monday, November 29, 2004Y

all i know is..

its year end soon!!

please let me be slightly slightly loaded this december ok?

and tat i reali wish to watch SHUTTERS

chatting in msn wif a fRen now..hmm..seems like back to the past le. so happily chatting now. last time we oso chat alot...

tat i was sick again jus now. same like last few mths..pain like dunnoe wat the hell..even left work at 6pm instead of 10pm...FIRST TIME. REALI First time i took MC or leave or leave earli for work since workin at angie for two yrs le.

Only eat two slices of bread and a tea and a piece of nugget this whole day.

Sleep at 8pm and wake up at 11pm+ again..shit..pain....and...i realised i'm adjusting so much to nite life liao

Hungry now...u noe ma..Bt timah reali veri good...alwaes hang out tt area since workin at KAP..so mani nice foods...bt timah market..got nice traditional Carrot cake, which haf been servin us for decades le..and the long queue de Satay beehoon and Cuttlefish KangKong...den the old uncle sell de Mutton soup and Fish porridge and sugar cane drinks..soyabean drinks...

den walk to al alzhar...Pratas, Teh-ping, Bee bandung, Nasi lemak, Nasi patprik, Tom Yam soup.........................

-HUNGRY-

-sHld do something to my hair. Rebond it. Highlight it.& cut short fringe.
-i reali wan be fairer. So start using NIVEA whitening lotion!
-Buy smth for huiwen bday! =)
-3bottle of perfume, all left 1/4 liaO.
-buy a pair of hoop earrings
-buy a pair of heels too..i said le..i'm short..i dun i dun quite like it..
-buy a pair of covered shoes. aim 1pair le. can wear 4 wrk n go out. wear shoes more comfty
-buy jeans or pants and a skirt

okay. enuff.

ANd i'm reali freaking unhappy with my parents..

reali reali unhappy

i rather they dun gif birth to me

selfish pple!! they dun even seems to take xtra notice of me or take care of me?!

wan tell my mum. money dun drop from e sky. GO WORK and get a life!! DUn borrow money from me. I got no money to lend u le! U noe family finanicial not good den u help out lor! Fuc*ing! Dun complain to me or scream yell at me! Dun find excuses! Tired and sianz? C'mon lor..i'm even more jialat ok? i got sch to go to, and i got two jobs ok?! Irriating! Which mom will alwaes borrow money from the kid? Take her atm card and take advantage of it when u noe e pin no? den withdraw $200 out secretly? Den dun pay for my sch fees durin N levels? den i freaking squeeze money out to pay for it before i can take my results? Borrow money from me or alwaes no money.......wat u do wif ur money? DO stupid kind of investment?!

ANGRY!! SCREAMING OFF MY HEAD NOW!

okay....i shld try to slp now le.....wakin up at 630am later....

ends at 11/29/2004 01:08:00 AM

Sunday, November 28, 2004Y

time now is 317am. sunday le.

i reali reali reali got nothing to do le..so i decided to blog. -_-"

i headed to bed at 10pm jus now..but wake up at 2am again den tossed ard till 3am! so here i goes........hahaz

saturday offzz day and i woke up at 3pm after sleeping at onli 3am plus the previous nite. den i do nothing_nothing_nothing again at home. My mom so gd suddenly,bought me Cleo's magazine. I broke till i decided not to waste the $4.20. SO yeah yeah..read magazine loh. Den 6pm plus go BPP to eat dinner...walked past Sakura, den find all the pple tat i noe not working there liAoz..

Nothing to do after dinner again. Actuali..reali wana go out..i tink i'm reali those who cant tahan being at home and have absolutely nothing to occupy myself. Feel like strolling along Orchard to experience the XMAS feeling, or have some nice coffee...BUT lazy and no money. SIANZ!

SO i sUrf frenster..read frens blog...

* Fuc*ing loh.........Vinc's and Evon's Frenster was BLOCKED!!

*Lipsin den hor..pekchek over smth like he alwaes go out wif tis ger tat ger tis one tat one..hahA...
Its okay lah buddy =) Friends mahz..goin out is nth wrong..not as if ur havin some evil thoughts or u r attached or scandalism ritez?

If u were to say tat of urself..den i'm even worse yah? I count and tell u i go out wif how mani guys frens...
^tingyi my close pal,
^darren my best fren le in sec sch,
^recently haf dinner, take bike somemore go out wif alvin n raynor,
^den last time alwaes hang out wif davin,the malaysian guy and tis and tat..
^sit car go out wif jerral zhiwei mark..
^go clubbin and worse-DRUnk wif jinsen and vincent..
sometimes i reali wonder loh..at devils, wil there b pple who recognise me sia..cos vinc and me reali reali super CLOSE wif each other there de..wat u see other couples can do de, me n him oso can. hEh~~

BUT WHO CAREs........cos i m SINGLE!! haPPily SINGLE! >.<>

Sometimes, i tink i m stupid or watsoever. When there's gd guys who r good to me came knocking on my door..i dun open the door for them..bcos i naive,i stupid..i wana wait and hope tat the one i reali love will came knocking instead...

last yr dec..when worked at imm, know tis guy and he's reali super duper good..super good...but i rejected...firstly oso is bcos of vinc..hopin things between vinc n me wil bloom~ secondly oso bcos...pure malaysian guy and pure singaporean ger like me..dun click. communications prob =x

den davin..now all bcos of it..of all the long time pursuing..there's even no frenship to tok abt between us. sad..wonder how is he le. MSN prompt him, but he oso no reply....sec5 noe him le..tat time i've lyon..den aft lyon..o level hols....den june meet dao vinc...and yah...he waited so long.........and stupid me didn even realise~?

ermm i like clubbin so so much. When wil b the nx nite out...hahA...raven joining!

Feel like qutting le...so tired..dun like e new manager..but money..so tempting...

everyday 830-6pm....sianz....i reali hate it! Everyday wake up at 615am+ Squeeze train wif pple at 715am+ If everyday got free transport so so good..or i move to nearby sch de area....haiz..last time got a ex-bf livin at amk..if now stil together i oso benefit. but too bad lah. hahaz..

hmm..ok...den i nth to say le..
tata~

ends at 11/28/2004 03:17:00 AM

Saturday, November 27, 2004Y

FRIENDS* Play a vital part in our life. They are so important to us...we shared our joys n sorrow together..Most important of all....we are alwaes alwaes supporting each other...I love my frens..and i wana be wif them...i will support *yOu*, my dearie...alwaes there fOr yOu...alwaes alwaes. Take care of urself...we are strong..to overcome all obstacles~ i believe in u.

TODAY: Off from work at 1115pm liddat..called raynor to see if they are goin out anot,but nv pick up call..so i slowly strolled to bus-stop to hm hm.. stupid me..walked so slow, stil chat happily on phone wif mark cos asked him smth...and so i missed all the last bus!!

Hengheng sia,raynor called me back due to missed call..so gd loh..came n fetch me den asked him to pei me for dinner cos i super super hungry..go al alzhar eat again =) Everytime go dere sure meet dao frens sia. jus now saw a ex-poly mate loh. Anyway, thanks alot!!

New manager over at workplace there. SHIT LOR! He replaced another manager there!! Sianz..e manager just left so suddenly..i dun even noe...tink some conflicts between mgmt.. hAiz, e manager who left..is veri gd de..den left liaoz?! Tis new manager.......well....nth much to comment abt it. kind of sucks bah.

WeLL..mayb i'm more suitable for a job which is like..more idenpendent tyPe~..i do my job well and nobody watchin at me,observin at me..
BUT over there...alwaes got manager look at u...boss there...den they tell u dun like tis do..dun this dun that, do tis do tat..veri pek chek lorr..

the onli thing i like workin there is......customers are like our frens..majority of them are very friendly de...we can talked and chat and laugh together..make more frens oso..

And oso..listenin to singss..all day longg..haha..my top top fav song.."ANGEL"..bcos lyon alwaes sing to me last time de!! "underneath your clothes"..
"shut up"..
"cant take my eyes off u" *a song tat he likes..*

wat i dun like there....although its a small company nia, but u can see the line drawn veri clearly de lor..not a big famliy workin together de..for eg, tis woman, marketing de, she can just walked past the staffs except managers n supervisors[as if invisible]. Boss oso same lah..see us majiam like tiny beans. idiotic pple..

shitty..adjusting my life to the nite hrs ever since workin nite..stil not feelin sleeply at tis hr!! Jialat...... =x
Work till 11p, today..abit happie..abit sad oso..11pm so earli, dun feel like goin home..but dun go home den i go where?? wana go my fav place, devils..but no kaki no money..sad..jus feel like chillin outside loh..wan go dbl-o cos cheap drinks and at least got fren oso...

No sales at all today!! By 1030pm, goin to knock off soon..i only took 2 orders!! all small small orders de..den my another colleague at least got more orders liaO..so worried n paiseh..hengheng sia..tis steady poon pi pi couple, without hesistating, open a bottle of Chivas!! so hAppie =P It was $158 lohh...hahz...

my best pal tingyi now oso at taiwan le..goin for 3wks of training..

today, Sat slacked whole dat at home too..off day! no money oso le.. =x faster pay in!!

okAy...sleeppzzz time =)

ends at 11/27/2004 03:39:00 AM

Thursday, November 25, 2004Y

hoo..wat's still up wif me? i haf been in e mad spirits-sianz-frustrated ever since last week. i reali dunnoe wat happen to me. jus feel like screaming and yelling and vent all my frustrations out. mayb i'm jus crazy. send me for mental treatment and anger management bah.

fu*k lor. Next week onwards, for the next 20weeks, everyday 830-6pm only friday 830-530pm. Waking up everyday at 630am. I'm posted to IBID, online auction thingy within NYP. Lucky tat i still have classmates wif me, (though they are all paired up de). ANyway, jus hope all of us can enjoy TEP and get along well together =p

Egg Muffin meal for breakfast @10am. Briefing ended at 3pm+. Rushed down to Bugis to meet my dearies. Very nice cafe, but sadly..their drinks r not nice. haf a fair bit of fun there. Glad to hang out wif them once again!
On the way to Bugis..oso tok to Shawn..make my day. he's jus so gd...veri thoughtful..sunday tok on phone wif him den told him i cut my hand den he stil rem it..and first sentence jiu ask me abt my cut liaoz...

Left the place at 6pm..reached home change clothes, den went to LOT 1 to meet huiwen n my buddies. I was hungry, reali hungry, egg muffin till 7pm lor, but i dun wan eat...cos i left wif 4 golden coins wif me nia..but..huiwen ordered so mani food...and keep askin me to eat....so eat abit..

Went to mcdonalds to chat for a long time =) Talked alot alot. i wana make huiwen happie n her feelin okay and fine le...jus wan her to feel better and movin on...

dearies and buddies they all..today both tok abt vinc to me. errmm..we didn contact le. =not at all= i reali have to get things moving..and trashed him away.....huiwen view his frenster le..she said he's reali handsome..mayb he is..i dunnoe..i jus feel so obsessed abt him..he's charming..no wonder he dunwan a ugly ger like me.

i feel so damn jialat abt myself!! so wat i'm small size..i feel reali small..feel so short...they all so tall..will wear heels everyday.. starting to dislike myself..and losing all my confidence which i used to have...hate myself....i'm a *buang ger*

and oso i tink somehow..i was being malign by someone again lorr...jus feel tat she's toking abt me in her blog...i admit! i dun like her, though nth haf happen between us! She better dun step on my foot too! You can be nasty, so can me! okss...mayb i'm sensitive~

today in sch..nelle told me abt wat lipsin haf blog abt me goin out wif alvin...well....i 'ji tao' snooked..'xia dao' abt wat he said in e blog.....errmm..buddy,dun noe wat to say, except tis..dun need worrie abt me...
and...yepp..bike dangerous. okk..i noe...i will...minimise ridin on bike esp wif him..cos he chiong hell fast..

i noe who's bad...u noe..i reali can see pple clearly..or at least, i doubt them sometimes...its jus all up to me..how i gonna tackle it...
vincent is bad..i noe it all along de...i doubted him,dun believe him..but.....
Lin jinsen my ex same too..somehow who jus wan meet me to accompany him or wateva shit he's thinkin or running wild!

SIANZ! thur work 7-3am..fri 4-11pm...SIANZ......
dun feel like goin....

i've mani unclear debts!! sorrie.......i will pay back once i get my pay k?? veri sorrie..paiseh..around one more week will b payday

anyway..i gonna erase my dreams le..saving up to $1k before june is impossible. No more holidays to hongkong!! FAT HOPE.

My parents..sux ya. Gosshh...how i'm i gonna work wif TEP?

thur fri @ RAV? chiong work till midnite den nx day TEP @ 830am?

Den work Sat and Sun @ Angie? i dun like to work at nitespot lorr..who will like it...fu*k lor..its makin my life haywire, haggard, smelly, stinks, impose a bad self-image of myself. BUt...its e money. the money.

wateva_______

i go rest le

ends at 11/25/2004 01:14:00 AM

Tuesday, November 23, 2004Y

*New home!!

rem to change ur URLs!

thAnkew =p

icecherries.blogspot.com

ends at 11/23/2004 05:49:00 PM